iS okAy tO breAk anyThiNg but nOt giRl's heArT

JUNIEE need help!!give me some comment pls.

2010-09-25T09:05:00.000-07:00

I don't know why I feel like damn stress.nothing is going well.I don't like to feel it this way.can anyone tell me?
okay when you see this leave a comment for me pls.I wanna know what you all think about this?
when you have feeling towards a girl.how you feel when the girl you like let other guy touch?and the guy is your friend?how you feel?tell me.and it's in the club la.I wanna know am I too sensitive or normal?everyone pls comment pls.girl or guy also can.
do you think guy can do everything to the girls in the club?guy touch the girl in the club is normal?I don't fucking understand their mind.
tell me pls I need to forget it means I'm too sensitive.or I need to protect my girl?don't let the next time happen??tell me pls

wHAt a sAd tUesDay):

2010-09-06T22:29:00.000-07:00

what a bad day.i play for one hour poker and i never win one round of it .wtf right?such a unlucky day.lost all my credit.feels so sucky ): and im at pink nearby sunway without anyone beside me.lonely.im such a sad motherfucker.swt.

i thought my day will be good.but then unfortunately it's not AT ALL.haih.help me pls.save me from my loneliness.

gUyS & gIrLs (READ)

2010-09-05T12:05:00.000-07:00

Sunday night.3am in the morning and I'm still awake don't know why.the 3rd or 4th day I'm single.I'm always used to my single life.haha.can see chic around.won't feel guilty for my gf.haha(: uni start again after one week holidays.

I feel damn free nowadays,don't know why.and I wanna know why girls like to feel guitly for the ex when you have already broke up with him.don't pls.broken relationship no matter what he do also no use,as a guy don't do stupid thing make girl can't move on.you missed your chance just fuck off and let go.don't be such a bitch hold the girl like some toy.you have your own life don't make yourself look like bastard.if you got your way to holdthe girl's heart,you're good but don't ever male girl hard to choose their decision.be a guy and not a bastard.

girls,you all should know,you are only one in the world.guys don't know how to appreciate just move on la.why you need to feel guilty or sad.?no point.don't drop your price,better to increase and not decrease.I'm not saying girls are like stock have their price.but every girl also have their own value.is good you stick with your bf but not after break up.for what?the whole world not just one guy,like I said forest is not only have one tree.choose the right one not stick to the wrong one.and hope he will come back to you.NO!!girls are gift to guys from god.want her then appreciate her and don't hurt her,don't want just leave it and move on.be a man!

the day i become single (:

2010-09-01T08:43:00.001-07:00

im back to my single life.dont click?ya true i think so.we dont spend much time together.she has her own party and i've my own party with my bunch of brothers.

is a good choice to break and not wait til the moment we both fight a lot and end up like some stupid drama, break up and be enemy.me and nicole are understanding ppl, dont need do til that stage and we can solve the problem out without any arguing and still can be friends.but no doubts,im happy to be with her for the 1month and 24 days.no regret.

2010-08-31T08:37:00.000-07:00

MERDEKA eve?what a night?!?

i cant imagine i pass my merdeka eve like that.

disappointment and disappointment.

HOW THE FUCK can a podium full of guys and not even one girl?

when i saw that scene i saw a lot of WTF running through my mind.

for the FIRST time im scared of going to the dance floor.not even one step nearer.

lucky i had my bunch of brobiee teman me pass the boring night.

i think we should plan for every event 1 month earlier.it will be better i think.

don't get too deep into it.or else you will get hurt more.purposely or accidentally?!?no one know.so you should think properly.i know is hard to make a choice but at the end you still need to.i know is hard when you see P and when you with her.right?i know how you feel.

relationship cant stay long when you met a guy like this.

WHY?!?

you will always find a better one compare to this.

no one is perfect.

stick to it or you just play around?

make your decision.

don't make your situation go til the end of the road,

that time you want to walk back and do it again,

you don't have the chance anymore.

chance is just giving to you once and not twice.take it or leave it?thats all.

dont blame and dont lie.

relationships are not marriage,

choose who you want,

you should know this better than everyone.

written by

juniee (:

what a day

2010-08-16T08:51:00.000-07:00

i had my lunch with my dearest,nicole.damn happy to see her again after so long.which is errrr...3 days.is that consider long?

today was a tiring day.had my buss stats test with wengfoong anna and jon.it seems quite easy but i dont think i can get more than half.which means im taking the test without getting any marks at the end.stupid right?

raining heavily after our test.couldnt get wf's car but then rattie went and take his car and drove into foyer and fetch us.goooddd brobieeee.

went solaris shisha with my gang,-fat shark,rattiee,menslut,actor,bear and slut.

reached home damn tired but then nothing to do and i couldnt sleep so post this shit up.LOL

juniee's blog is back(:

2010-08-14T10:08:00.000-07:00

i just read back all the blog that ive been posted up.is damn funny.i admit that what i say about all the girls got something on with me,i said the same thing.i dont know why.maybe that time i seriously feel that way but then after some time is not the same.the feeling change damn fast.i dont know how to explain about that.but then is true i said the same things about them.
sounds so stupid right?

but after so long i found one girl,yes i got something on with her,lesser than 1 month and we got together.ppl always said dont know a person too long only get together.cause you got the chance to know her better and not know about everything only get together.maybe some of them can last long but then guys are like that,feel bored easily.i think all the girls will agree this.

is easier for you to last long with your another half is that try to know her better as the time goes.this will help the relationship.for me,i just got mine.the moment i spent with her is not long but then she can give me the feeling which i never have before.is true.after think twice only i wrote this.

the warm you gave me,i really appreciate it.
the way you kiss me,
the way you hug me,
stay in my heart.
will never goes off.

damn long never blog d dont know how anymore?hahaa.
and i wanna tell everyone all my brobieees' new name.LOL
wengfoong-fat shark
weisheng-rattieee
yewloong-menslut
zeezheng-short boy

2010-03-02T06:08:00.000-08:00

i wanna blog about her one.but then she said damn gay,so nvm la.
actually the her is the one i love and the only one i want.maybe every single girl i met is the same.but i found she is different in some way.i want her to know that i'm serious with it ,maybe everyone thinks i treat every girl is the same. but actually is not la .maybe you all don't know ,the time i spent with her was great =)
i hope this can last long ,and stay with me forever .

i love spending time with her .

thanks =)

GAO DIM!:D

2010-01-05T08:19:00.000-08:00

i cant even remember how long i never sign in my blog,almost half a year.sometimes just damn lazy to blog la.
coll just started,but i dont think it makes any diff for me.the first day of class never attend,cause of futsal.lol.but im going on thursday.
short intro about all my bro
wesley ho(hip hop)-sometimes i just dont know what else i can chat with him,besides keep insult him:)
jienyoong(brobiee)-i dont understand why he always tell me sien,but then ask him wanna go where,he will give me a reply'i dont know'swt.
weishenglee(rattie)-this one the worst,i cant use anything to describe him besides one word(RATTIEE)
brianchong(bear)-this bear like to skate in the futsal court,and like to touch her gf in front of us when we went out yumcha.fcking too much!
yeekuan(actor)-i never see such an good and fantastic actor in my life,he is the first one!NO NO NO!!
yoonwei(mr moo)-this one like russia damn alot,every single time when bear's gf is there,he will mention the word russia or russian la.lol.swt
wengfoong(ipoh kia)-this one always not free one,i dont know why he so busy?:D
ghiajun(tortoise)-this one do everything also damn slow one,beside 2 things,drive his car and lie down on the bed facing upwards.lol:D

single or couple?

if you give me one chance to say out what i wanna say

before i die,

i will tell you

i love you without stopping.

even though im dead,but my soul still continue.

Foooooo..hOliDaYs!!

2009-11-10T10:52:00.000-08:00

finals just finished:)im having fun with my long holidays,this is call life when you are not worrying like studying or other thing else:)right?just enjoy as much as you can:)

nothing to describe.

2009-10-08T08:37:00.000-07:00

what do you think about your life?good?bad?stress?relax?
i think my life is just fucking stress and bad,first i went to DU for dinner with my friend,i parked my car in the car park,after dinner the entrance was closed then i need to walk around to find the exit to get back to my car,after damn long i have no idea how i get back,lucky i saw 1 aunty in the lift,she showed us the way to get my car):
once i reached home,i dont understand why parents like to think they are always right,they are not god right?not always make the right move,but then they dont care what you said,once they think it's wrong,then you have nothing to say at all.cause they are always right.
do you think life should be fair?
i cant stand this anymore la.life is so fucking useless.
im trying my best to think it in a positive way,but i just cant do it.lucky in my life i found her,the moment i see her,i feel that my life is just full of colour.i ask myself what is stress?at that moment the word "stress" cant find in my dictionary.
whenever i face problem,once i think of her,everything will be alright.thanks joey:)you made my day:):)

after so 7 DAMN KAO long...

2009-09-28T08:36:00.000-07:00

so damn 7 long never post d,busy enjoying my holidays and busy for other stuff,now only i thought of this blog.i almost forgot i have a blog.but today damn tired la.starting from tomorrow i will post up one each day.if not my blog will be a dead blog.

explaination:)

2009-08-29T08:42:00.000-07:00

aiya,after so long only i tell you all what happen and why i post that up.actually i dont mean anyone.you all sure think that is her.haha..but actually is not,all this thing never happen on me.just that i dream of it the night before.and i remember i damn moody in my dream cause the girl said that to me,i dont know what to do.then i wrote it here and let you all know,actually everything is just dream only dont think too much.
and i wont say like that about the girl who i love if never happen.i wont spoilt her name like that one.i know i still love her,but i wont do anything anymore la.cause i know the result.she still loves him and noone can change the fact.that is why nothing else i can do.

stupid thing ever!

2009-08-26T09:45:00.000-07:00

being stupid is just like me,you always think that when you love the person is more than enough,cause you dont hope for any return from her/him.but now i realise they wont know how much you do for them,they will just think of who they love and who they care.they never think of you at all.
why i say this?i dont know,i just think that i damn stupid,i dont know what should i do,and what i shouldnt do.maybe they are right.dont be a stupid person.they wont appreciate what you have done.they dont even give a shit to what you did.they will just think who ask you to be so stupid do so many things for me.that is your return,is not from their mouth but is from their heart.
they will think this sohai always kacau me,think he himself got any chance to get me,ask him to dream on la.i dont think you want this kind of reply from her right?then you should just leave her alone better than keep kacau her til she say that to you.
it's hurt,but the most important thing is that you being stupid and give her the chance to tell you that you are stupid.DONT ever do that like me.you all have a lot of choices,dont being stupid and wait for the reply come out from her mouth.

FUCKING STUPID!!

2009-08-24T08:56:00.000-07:00

my dearest rac:)

yoong my bro:)

sheng my bro:)

my darling:)

wow today damn tiring weihhh..early in the morning rushed for my 1st econ assignmnet,late 40mins cause LDP fucking hell jam,i reached coll around 910,i dont know the test is half an hour only,i thought it's one hour.when i reached all finished d.im like wtf.i need to see norli and get approve from her to retake my assignment.then right after my accounts class then i went for the test around 15 mins.then only i went for my CSC class.today i feel damn happy never skip even one class hehe:)

after that sheng,foong and me went to cut hair at SS2,after that we went rasta shisha.

around 5 something rac called me,her car broke down,then i took foong's car and go meet her up,no batt i went yoong's shop and took it.after that her car can move but then half way stop cause water over boiled.inside no water wth right?nvm is rac right i myust help no matter what.

then the workshop ppl came and help,then she left her car there for checking.tmw noon only i go collect.straight after that we went to sheng house and wait for yoong come and fetch us.

cause too many ppl cant fit inside the myv.we went alsafa,then i sent yoong back and i use his car to send my princess back home cause she got no car right?haha..bro,thanks so much,i owe you la.seriously,i wont forget how you treat me.thanks.

after that i need to thanks sheng meili and kim also.i got no transport back then i asked them come fetch me all the way from desa park city to taman tun just to send me home,i feel really sorry for them.disturb you all seriously sorry,darling thanks so much.then when i reached home kena fuck cause came home late without bag haha.:)nvm la.everything is worth it.

actually she can follow her friends back one,but nvm la so long never see her d,so i send her home lo.wanna see her more ma..hehe:)if not got no chance.

rac thanks allowing me to send you home,give me the chance to spend time with you,thankssss:D i really appreciate it.

and yoong sheng meili i seriously need to say one more time,THANKS SO SO MUCH!i owe you all la.tmw i belanja makan.

fOr thE One wHo yOu KnoW iS yOu:)

2009-08-23T06:11:00.000-07:00

i know you are sad,but you try to think properly why all those things will happen?dont you think it comes too fast and goes too fast.no matter how much you love him,once his heart changed you cant do anything with it.i know you still love him,but you need to know this kind of guy is not worth for you to get emo or unhappy the whole day.who doesnt know you are a positive and happy person.all like to see you with your big smile,not the emo face,it's horrible to see that face.
i know you damn sad now,but you need to chill down and think properly,dont emo for the guy who doesnt love you anymore,if he still love you,all those things wont ever happen cause he cares about your feeling.but you know the whole thing,i dont know i cant really say much.
i just hope that you can be happy like how you ask me to be last time,now i think i need to tell you this again,cause i dont want to see you unhappy.the moment i know you are unhappy,my heart feel damn pain.dont know why,maybe your every single thing can affect me in every single way.
when you know the one who you love dont love you anymore,you need to accept it.it needs some time but you must do it cause that is the only thing you can do.
EMO?UNHAPPY?
it cannot solve things out,will just make thing worse.
you will have a better life without all this stress..be happy,my dear.

just for you:)

2009-08-21T08:48:00.000-07:00

i dont know you like it or not?but i just want to buy it for you and make you happy,i dont know whether i success or not,i just try only.
cause the thing i dont want it to happen the most is you being unhappy.everything i also dont care but when you emo or unhappy,i cant concentrate d.i like to see you smile,laugh or hyper.cause that time you are just wonderful and beautiful.you are so attractive that time,but when you are unhappy or angry,you look damn scary and no nice.so you must be happy all the time k?i dont want you scared all your friends or neighbours.K?haha..
everything will be fine,i think he just busy doing his things so that cant msg you in the morning only la.must be positive k?negative dont even bother to think about it.cause you dont want to be unhappy or negative.
when you emo remember open your fridge k?i hope that can help you release all your stress.

always be U dont be n :)

genting:)

2009-08-21T08:11:00.000-07:00

today i suppose to post up the genting pic right?i got it la.

everyone enjoy the one day trip.

but after that everyone were fucking exhausted.

on the way down from genting to rasta.:(tired.

cute right?

bumber cars.:)

our chemical bonds:)

mr moo doing body pump:D

langit ada....

after finished,everyone were in the pic.

while waiting for others who were playing.

just finished playing cock screw.fucking dizzy.

the first thing we play:)

all the girls:)

brian,yoonwei,kimmy,foong,keefe and me.

the porsche mirror.

keechong sleeping and brian try to poke kimmy face.

kimmy,darling,jason.anna.keefe,foong,sheng,brian,edric,yoonwei,tienning,vivien,cheezhen and ME!

me darling kimmy foong and ning.

me and tien ning:)

carrying my queen:)

my darling and me.

kimmy and me.

me and foong.

darling,me and kimmy.

foong,kimmy,me and darling.

me and kimmy.

darling me and kimmy.

me and foong.

that is brian car,damn slow right?

gEntiNg and wHat i wAnNa tEll yOu.

2009-08-20T09:23:00.000-07:00

wow..today damn tiring.came back from genting with all my crazy bros and sis.

who went with me?

-weisheng,wengfoong,meili,kim,keefe,brian,keechong,jason,yoonwei,edric,tim,cheezhen,zheng,hao,anna munyee,charles,vivien,jienyoong,chloe,wesley

i dont think i miss out anyone here right?tell me if i do.we enjoy our half day holidays.cause today our mufy have some charity stuff,all classes shorten it to half an hour.that is what we want la.right?bros.haha:)

i think i should just post tmw with all the pics.

rach.

dont be emo and negative.

you never think it will become like that,if you love him you should just change him,cause i dont think negative is better than positive.right?everyone can be negative but cant totally change to negative.thats wrong,totally wrong la.

noone want to be negative,sometimes cause of the situation only.when you love him just go for him,so that you wont regret.we do something not to let us have any chance to regret,cant just give up like that(everyone).

change for him or change him?what you think?you are positive,he is negative.of course you need to change him into positive right?no such thing you change for him one la.that is bullshit.

i dont hope to know you cry for all this again,you know when you are happy you are fantastic,but when you emo or angry,damn scary la.pls la dont.if not i will spa.. you again..haha:p

but im serious with it,i want you to be happy not like that,dont let your tears just roll down like that,think.k?i dont hope he will treat you good just that i hope you will be happy.that is all i want.be yourself,dont stress yourself out.remember what you told me?if he love you,not the one after you change,is the original you.no point loving him if he want you to change,that is not you anymore.get it?

be like this:D

still remember?:)

whAt a dAy?

2009-08-18T05:14:00.000-07:00

after so long,almost two years i feel the sadness again.
i cant imagine i lost her just in one night,while im sleeping.i woke up at 4,took my phone and look,2 msg.press and see 2 from her.told me the thing i never expect will happen.that time my mind totally blank and i want to cry but cant really cry out,i seriously feel this time is worse than last time.cause me and her get close damn fast,but get further even faster,now we are just friends.
i dont know how to tell you all how i feel?just that i feel like what i do for her is not enough to make her stay with me,i seriously damn regret being so stupid again.two years ago i made a regret and stupid decision,after 2 years same thing happened to me again.
i seriously cant get girlfriend,maybe my attitude problem and i cant treat the girl as good as others.i dont know what to do now.i feel damn blank,want to find something to pass my time but i cant.cause before this i spend all the time with her,but now i dont know how to spend all my time.i still remember the time i spent with her,was so happy and romantic.the moment i spent with her will always stay in my mind and it will never go off my mind.
even though she reject me cause of her ex but i tell you all i wont just give up like that,no matter how long i will wait for her cause the love towards her is just cant explain in words.
i want her but cant,so i can just hope she will be happy with the ex and treat her better.today i cried for her,dont know why,tears just came out and i keep thinking of her,i think that is the reason why.
today i went ac play pool with jim,once i stepped in ac,i felt something missing,IS HER!!she totally gone from my world.i dont want to do stupid thing,so i can just tell myself study well,so that me and her have another chance in some other time.
thanks all my bros.seriously everytimes when i had all this problem they will always stay beside me,i will never forget how you treat me,in my heart always got my brothers.
rachel:i still love you but cant show it out so i can just keep it inside my heart.

yO mUst dO iT nO maTTer wHat!

2009-08-17T07:38:00.001-07:00

you should just throw everything out of your mind,think it simple and relax dont think too much.
i think i have change,before i get emo i will think of it whether should i?
today i did,i shouldnt do all the stupid thing,i need to be positive.i wont ever get emo again la.no point.haha.i found that i have changed into another person,i should be cold,nope.not cold just chilling and take it easy.
whatever anyone do i also wont put in my mind,just take it as a joke or bullshit.care too much will just stress you out.think before you do?
from now on whoever ask me to care i will just tell them dont stress yourself out,think it another way no matter what.be hhapy right?agree?hahaha:)

2009-08-16T21:31:00.000-07:00

today is the earliset i post up my blog.

i dont really know what to post up,but i still post up la.nothing to do also so i just signed in my blog and write some shit here la.

i miss her and i cant msg her cause she is in the class now,i dont want to disturb her cause i want her to concentrate in the class.if im not mistaken she have alot of work to do.

finally i understand how is the day when you dont stress yourself up.is damn relaxing and cooling.i skipped my 11 class went and have lunch with all my bros.i dont know what to drink so i ordered carslberg to drink.i think im going to drink it everyday cause it can release my stress and let me dont think so much of thing.but then today i dont have any stress la.cause im always happy with everything.i dont want make myself think so much and dont want make her so stress.she is my everything and i will do the simpliest thing for her,just to make her happy.

im thinking of her every second in my day.ppl ask me why i think of her?what so good about her?i have alot of thing to say about this.

when you love her,you can find alot of reason to love her,but you have only one reason why you want to get together with her.

cause you have the special and mysterious feeling hiding in your heart.you cant show it and you cant tell anyone.just you can feel it.some of the feeling you can feel it's going to stay there for a while but some of it you can feel it can stay for a long time,do you think it before when you tell other ppl you love her?

maybe some of you dont agree with my statement,i just want to share with you all how and why i love her so much til i cant do anything with it?

i dont hope i can make everyone happy but just her.what she think and how she think make alot of diff to me.cause she is the only one who can make me feel in this way.

she is the only one who can make me love her so much.

she is the only one who can make me change my mind into another type of thinking

she is the only one who can make me think of her every second everyday

she is the only one who can make me smile the whole day without any single reason.

she is the only one who can make me want to protect her in every way.

2009-08-16T06:16:00.000-07:00

when you love the person,dont regret of loving her,just think of treating her good.dont give you yourself all the excuses that she is not good la,or she damn this or that la.all this you shouldnt have when you love a person.
treat her/him better than others.not treat her bad like others.do you think before when you both fight,
1,it will make you both know each other even more,understand each other what each other want.
2,you will stress another person out when another one started the fight.
you must know what to do and how to do with different person.

just like me,i love her and i willing to change my everything for her.last time i can change for my ex,today wen jun can do it again.just for her.
maybe im just immature cant match with her.i dont know seriously why i like that?why i always being so stupid find things to fight leh?
haha.you think i always want to be stupid.?no no no,i wont anymore lo..i need to be a smart fella and not a stupid dumb fella.hehe:)

yesterday is the last day,pls remind me when im being stupid release my emotion like sohai.i dont want and wont do that again.anymore.

why?

cause of her i wont do that anymore.AT ALL!!!

cause i love her so much til i can do everything.hehe:D

tHe dAy i FeEl mYseLf so sTupId aNd UselEsS

2009-08-16T00:13:00.000-07:00

i just dont know what should i do and what i do is right,what i do is wrong.
maybe the way i show my care to her is diff from others.thats why she doesnt like it in that way,i dont think i have any reason not to change for her.when you love her damn alot til you cant control yourself,that is what you will do to her,just to make her happy only.

since she is positive person,now ME i will just always be positive.i wont ever get angry get moody or get sad no matter what.cause she doesnt like it.but also need to depends on the situation la.it cant like ppl kacau my girl i can still relax and sitting down there right?i know what to do now and i wont do the things i shouldnt do.

ME,juniee tell everyone who read my blog,i will never ever be emo or moody cause of all the stupid things.cause i want she stay in stress free zone.i miss her damn alot la.i cant imagine i never see hre for one day.imagine you dont eat or drink for the whole day.imagine human live without oxygen or fishes live without water.that is me.
'i cant tell you all how much i love her.i just can do everything for her no matter what,no matter how hard is it,i also will try all my best to do it.i know i made her unhappy,sorry so much and i promise you and everyone will be the weakness that i will never ever be like that anymore.

for the one i love i want me to do that,thats why i promise her in my blog,so that everyone can prove that i said it to her.

2009-08-14T09:46:00.000-07:00

my sexy baby:)

i just realised you just shouldnt care so much about everything.

i found that last time im just over sensitive over someone.like want to protect her in every single way,but i never think that she will never has the same mind as me right?

maybe im just over protective and over sensitive over everything,sometimes you just shouldnt care about so much.what she like to do,just say yes and no such thing as NO..

the chance is you need to depend on yourself and not other person give you,what you should do is just put in more effort thats all.dont want think too much and just change!i want to let you know im changing not just for fun,is forever.cause i never think i want to get together with you for a short period of time,what i want is just you,not about the time.of course i hope i can last long with you,maybe someone will say why i so stupid said all this kind of things.

but what i realise is i dont care what other people think about what i said.i just care about what she think.you dont need other people to agree with you,you just need one person who you love to speak out the same word as you.

today she not in a good mood cause just fought before i reached there.i also dont dare to talk to her much cause maybe i will make things worse so i kept quite and let her go and release her stress on the pool table.when i see she play,she just concentrate.i hope she can win the competition tomorrow.i cant do anything for her,just support her from far.

and i also dont want do too many things that will make her feel annoying or emo.i just want her to have a peaceful life and enjoy with everything.

2009-08-13T07:15:00.001-07:00

i feel that me and her got one distance in between us,is like we are not that close in the public.i feel damn uncomfortable.and i know alot of people want to go after her,imagine you are the person who meet her the first time,im sure you want to go after her.i cant stop other people from going after her,what i can do is just make her happy and make her remember me,that's all i can do.i cant go and stop them or anything,cause she is not belong to anyone yet.

you know what i want to do next time?i mean my ambition.is that i want to earn the money which can afford my wife to buy what she like.like pool stick,car,go shopping and all.i want to let her know im not that kind of person who know how to talk all the sweet things but dont know make it happen.i swear that i will do it and make her happy in real life no matter in which way.i will love her as much as i can and let her enjoy the life with all the things she likes.for now the person i love alot is just only her.i cant promise anything about future.but if we get together,i think we can last long.why?no reason.sometimes love is just cant explain in words.

all the reason guys tell girls is just to make them feel secure only.

the love between me and her cant explain at all,

one word

"FEEL"

my lovely baby:D

13th Aug 2009

2009-08-13T03:01:00.000-07:00

that is who i love the most:)my baby.

i dont think she is pretty but very pretty and sexy:D

dont you think so?

all agree right?:p

today i went for morning classes,damn freaking hell tired,i cant even wake up.cause yesterday i slept damn late.wait to call someone but i cant make it cause the person never go home and stay over her friend's house.how to call leh?yesterday night damn tired d,but i thought i can call her at night but everything since like disappointed me in every way.i purposely stayed awake and washed my face,ate ice cream and worked out in my room.i thought everything is worth it but the fella come again.(disappointment)is like i need to listen to her voice every night only i can sleep,but not every night i can get what i want right?so sometimes i just went fb and see her pictures so i can sleep well at night.

yesterday i went fb and see her pictures before i sleep and suppose to talk to her on the phone.everytimes you talk to the person you love the most you feel damn happy and everything goes right in your mind.you try and think when you never talk to her one day is like never talk to her damn long d.damn suffer right?some more before that i msg her asked where is she,replied me coming back soon,that time i damn excited and wait,at the end i dont know what i get,sad la.why ah?but nvm la.i should just leave it and make her happy.what she want and the way she want i can just follow.cause i should do everything for her when you love her alot til the stage that you cant even imagine and believe that is you are doing that.

tell me what to do?im trying to be positive all the way,cause diff person with diff character,so you love the person must always follow what she want.this is not change for her,cause when you seriously in love with someone you just want her to be happy .now i seriously give up to think to get together with her cause what she want is freedom.just let it be la.i also no more energy keep asking her about all this question.i know she wont like it so must as well i just leave it and let her make the decision.when i look at her,she is happy then everything is worth it.get together?forget it la.always be POSITIVE k?

I WILL ALWAYS BE POSITIVE NO MATTER WHAT LA.

that is the only thing i left with me,also the only thing i can do.

my OK day!

2009-08-11T07:56:00.000-07:00

today consider a normal but tiring day.early in the morning must go to coll for the first econs class.damn boring.the class just started around 15 mins,then zheng,brian,jason and sheng all lying on the table d.but the $ never say anything.
after coll we all play futsal in sport planet from 5-7.damn tired.
after that we planned to go eat steamboat in kelana jaya-telephone steamboat.but it never open so we change our venue to kota damansara-hoho steamboat,obviously before that i must do something before i have my dinner,if not i cant eat at all.
can guess what is that?
seeing her for a short moment.dont know why,when i look at her,i feel my tiring day became a energetic and enjoy day.dont you think we all should live in this way,like the one who you love doesnt want to get together with you,so what?the best thing is can see her everyday and talk to her.even though she got a new bf,you should just love her from far far away.dont do anything to her.you love someone not to hope for anything in return from her,just hope she's happy enough.she treat you as a normal friend or stranger also can.but i just hope to see her enjoy her life without having any stress,right?the moment you think of her,the world is so wonderful and colourful.

even though we never like last time,but we are still friends.i dont care what she said hurt my heart or my feeling,i just want her to be happy.selfish right?i willing to do that for her.maybe at the end i wont get her as mine,but i hope she can get another better.i just dont want her to be unhappy and stress for anything.

happy and free life,
dont you want it?
dont be selfish,
think of her,
follow her way,
let it be.

WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF LIVING IN THIS WORLD?
see the one who you love smile.
see the one who you love laugh.
see the one who you love sleep.
see the one who you love BE HAPPY!
that is the most important thing.

i dont like to see her cry,tell me she is stress,then i hope i never appear in her life or in front of her.i hope i dont live in this world if im giving her stress in this way,if i know she is stress about this,i will feel damn painful and sad.that day i think properly about everything and i cried.cause i damn freaking hell selfish,i never think she will doesnt like it in this way.how stupid am i?TELL ME!why the god want to play me in this way?give me and take it away from me.at that moment my mind was blank and i dont know how i feel?sad?NO,worse than that.want to cry?i hope i can bring all my tears out from my body and let it go.

LET'S IMAGINE!
you lost the one who you love the most.she think you are giving her alot of stress.when she is unhappy,do you think you can be happy?i dont thinkkkk sooo..impossible!if you are happy,that means what you told her like how much you love her or how long you both will last?
ALLLLLL BULLSHIT!!!
WHAT KIND OF FUCKING SHIT IS THAT?

LOVING her is like the GOD passed to me when i was borned.
seeing her smile is the happiest thing ever in my life.
seeing her happy,that's the reason why i feel glad.

wHat iS lOve?

2009-08-10T07:01:00.001-07:00

sometimes something just not always follow what you want in your mind,when the things come to some place,it should just stop and think properly whether you should do that or you should just stop everything and think.im not saying what you want or what you dont want.is about the another side of you,think it in another way,at first i dont know it should be like that,but now after i got it from someone i knew it,when someone dont want it to happen,we should just leave it,cant force it to happen or whatever shit which follow you.

you must respect another side-take it slowly or just stop it.i know it's damn hurt but when it comes to some point which cant do what you want,that's what you should do at the end.

so what you love her so so kao alot,at the end when she said "I WANT TO BE SINGLE"
you know what is the sound for the glass to drop on the floor?on that time that's the sound from my heart.you cant expect anything to happen again again and again.cause you had made the wrong move and made her to have this kind of move which will hurt your heart.but what else you can do with it?

speechless and hopeless.

the world just turned dark,
clouds covering,
when's the right time?
to see the real world,
with the colourful sky.

hope hope and hope?
does it work?i hope so,but i cant believe one day i just totally lose her in a way that i cant really do anything with it.
before i met her,
i walked alone,eat alone,sleep alone.
but when i saw her,my world changed.
TOTALLY!!360degree change.
i know what is the purpose of living in this world,
i got it why i wish to wake up earlier everyday just to think of her for the short moment.
only i willing to wake up from the bed to get ready for everything.

do you try this before?
when you wake up for classes,you take one min to think what is the purpose of waking up so early?what is the main point to make everything go in the right way.when you lack of the most important thing from one most important person.it's just really hard to imagine what kind of world it will turn into.
-dark and scary.
-hopeless and useless.
-sleepy and tired.
-no motivation and energy.

i know how to ask.but do you think i need all this at this moment?no matter how special or how long i took to think this,it become rubbish at the end.cant use it at all.
but you need to know that,you MUST respect the one who you love,
follow her mind and listen to what she said.cause you cant change anything anymore.

do you think the plaster can help?

can you place the broken heart into the same position without any blood?

giRl wHo wOrTh fOr You tO lOvE:)

2009-08-08T00:02:00.000-07:00

imagine who you love the most told you that we have some problem need totake a step backwards.how you feel?i can tell you it's terrible and feel like shit..everyone also face problemevery single day,we cant just leave the problem like that,every single person also have their different kind of thinking.thats why we all are special individuals right?if you love the person you must think of a good way to make the situation good for both of you.you cant just try,you must do it and make it happen.now only i realise you cant overlook the situation,cause sometimes you will make things worse.you must always be positive,even though you are not totally that kind of person,but when you love another person with the positive thinking,you must tell yourself whether you want to get together with her or you just want to be back yourself..for diff ppl have diff decision.just like thinking-positive or negative?decision-be back yourself or change it? sometimes all this decision is hard for you to make it so fast.but when you think of the girl you love so much,and you are facing this problem.your mind will be blank and just ask yourself that how much you love her?do you think she is worth it?then you will know what are you going to do.
for me i will just tell myself i dont want to make any decision will make me regret.i want to make the right decision which will leads me to happiness but not sadness or stress.i found mine,DO YOU?

when come to all this relationship,i never joke around with the girls i love.i know last time still young made a lot of wrong decision cause me to regret,so now i never let all this happen in my life again.i will change for her,even though im not.
sometimes you must think it through another perspective.you cant just think with your own stand,maybe some of you dont get what i mean,but when you come to your lover,you will get it and understand it.

love is just like that,you cant get who you want but you get the one who is diff from you,relationship need alot of opposite thing,like thinking-negative person must couple with positive person.you cant have both the same,if not once they have problem,the problem will just leave there and hard to settle.choose the right one for yourself and others.DONT REGRET!

THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN RELATIONSHIP

TRUST AND BELIEVE!

my birthday on 22nd of july,2009

2009-07-27T05:13:00.000-07:00

we were in ou cause we planned to play futsal right after college.we all went back home and get our own stuff,my baby following me after college to my house.sheng also with me.she was driving her car.after that we went to ou and play futsal from 5 to 7 but i reached there late around 6 something,i kena fuck,haha:)after we play then we walked around ou and deciding where to have our dinner,at first we planned to go FRIDAYS but need to wait 15-20mins,i lazy to wait then someone suggested to have steamboat in old wings.on the way there,then charliee suddenly said want to go souled out,cause there got atmosphere.so we turned back and go souled out.that was the pic on the way to hartamas before passing the tunnel.we took alot of pic.

and the most important person i need to say thanks is my baby,rac<3.cause>

THANKS GUYS!!

before we go to souled out,waiting for mr moo and meili's car to come.

the group photo..a bit dark!

me and charlieee...

me and the bear bear chong.:D

the little birdyyy.

the blur chicken.

hartamas dai ko!

best bro,chokingwind.

muscle moo and jy

real muscle wong..

mr moo and meili(my darling)

my darling.

my two best bro,sheng(ratty)and foong(vomit king)

my baby and sien(stoner)

my baby and I.

sien and rac<3

gay partner:)

random.lol

making a wish:D

vomit king!

charlieee..

bear bear.

birdy.

best bro yoong.

sien me and my baby,rac<3>

juniee<3

omg i dOnt kNow WhAt hApPen tO my dAy.it suCks!!!

2009-07-15T07:40:00.000-07:00

today freaking hell bad day..i dont know why the hell all the unlucky stuff happened to me..hyh.today coll no more parking slot.so i park my car near medan.and charles park in front of me..cb when i come back,the stupid paper on my front mirror..cb fucker..the first time i park outside kena saman d..you can imagine how bad is that?later i pass by pj taylors coll there,wanted to make a U-turn,but it's one way,like that also let the police saw me..sohai right..then need to pay him not to saman.if he saman,one day i will get 3 saman in a row..fuuuuuucccccckkkkk la...
fReAkinG hEll bAd dAy!!

just can see and cant do anything,damn 'bo song'..
why one relationship so hard to maintain til the best?
why girls like to suspect the love from the guy to the girl.
(girls)-when you feel you like the guy and the guy treat you good,just go for it la..dont care who or what is stopping you from making the right decision.
(guys)-when you find your girl who you like or have good feel pls.dont give up and give some effort into it.and the most important thing is consistency.you cant give up just like that when you're facing problem.just do it and tell yourself you must try and work it out..so what til the end you cant get her,at least you did your best,nothing for you to regret right?

i always heard LOVE IS BLIND!!but i think LOVE IS SELFISH also..you cant think of others when you like a person.so what others are having a same target with you,you must do your own part and do whatever you feel like doing it..

15th of july,2009.

2009-07-14T09:38:00.000-07:00

AC tHe whOlE fuCkinG dAy!!
today i woke up damn early in the morning,cause my class is at 830..so must wake up early and go coll earlier.always jam in LDP..damn sohai.i almost fell asleep in the car while im driving.my eyes like going to close.scared bang car but luckily i never get into accident la..if not i cant post this now:)today econs teacher never come,just passed us the paper and ask us to finish it and put into pigeon hole.but we dont care,just go off and went eat at medan..foos time!!keefe keefe,why you like to crawl under the table?haha.around 1 something i went ac and foos..but when i reached there,i saw rachel there playing pool..so i join her and play,so never foos.
we stay there til 9 something..damn late.after that i brought rachel to alsafa to shisha.then later that i fetch her home.

tHe giRl wHo yOu nEvEr wAnt to huRt hEr aT aLl.
do you feel this before?when you never expect the thing will happen just like out of a sudden..you cant imagine that you are not in the dream.i hope im not.YES it was real.i can feel it and that time i really damn happy and damn appreciate the chance.when im with her,i can feel like im the happiest guy in this world.i always dream that at night..in my dream.and now it become real.i cant explain how i feel.happy and excited til i have no other single word to say except HAPPPPYYY:D
it has been quite long for me to have this feel again..i wont just let the chance go like that..i want to hold it tight and noone can grab her away from me.i swear!it's hard to find a girl you are getting closer with and you love her loads.you should appreciate the chance right?you shouldnt just let it go like that..i will try all my best to put in 100% effort.and consistency.agree right?dont give up til the end!!
i love you and i miss you damn alot.the time when i hug and kiss you,i feel the world is so bright and full of hope.:D:D

2009-07-12T06:36:00.000-07:00

MEILI'S PARTY:)
yesterday when i reached home a bit late..so cant update my blog..til now only i free to update..yesterday was meili's party.before that i went out with weisheng around 3 something to his house only took a cab to ac..cause my sis drove the car out..so i got no choice to take cab with him..when i reached there..i saw her there also..then i play pool with her and weisheng.after that we need to go back around 8 something..we were late for meili's party.i asked rachel to go meili's party also..she said tell me later whether she can make it or not..we took cab from ac to jy house.then only he fetch me to my house and change,by the time i want to go out.my dad came back.so happy,can drive out no need mafan my bros..i drove there with weisheng.reached there around 9 something,we sat down chill for a while,then start to play poker on the dinning table..some of them play IN BETWEEN behind us..rachel reached meili's house around 11..

ME AND HER:D
besides that,i also damn happy on that day.cause i have something on with her..we get closer and closer..i feel the day was so bright even though it was raining on that moment.i hugging her and i dont feel like let go my hands.the feeling was perfect.i hope everyday i also can spend time with her together..but the time i spent with her yesterday not that long also.if i can spend the whole night with her,that is even better.dont you think so?i feel i so lucky to know her after i broke up with my ex so long..last time i think of her everyday-my ex..but she told me that we have no chance to get together,and i dont think i should waste time on her cause she have a bf..when i know she is happy with the bf,that's enough for me..i still treat her as my good friends.but she is diff from her,i need to change for her cause her attitude is diff from my ex.so yeah..i dont want to make myself regret again.i dont want never love the girl i suppose to love,i wont let her go no matter what..

MY STUPID PIMPLE
fucker,the stupid pimple like to follow me.diuuuuuuuu..

missing her is just like my daily routine:)

2009-07-09T07:10:00.000-07:00

today my coll damn tiring..maybe it's because i slept late yesterday night.this morning when i was driving to coll i damn sleepy la..almost fall asleep..lucky i think of her and it made me awake..hehe:)magic right?haha..but i seriously love her so much la..when she was beside me,i feel that wanna spend longer time with her,when i got back home,i feel like wanna go find her and spend time with her again..just like keep want to spend time with her..it's really amazing spending with her..she made my day:)when she is not beside me i will miss her kao kao alot.when she is beside me,i want to stare at her the whole time just look at her pretty and attractive face..the feeling damn weird..the first time i feel this way.i dont know how to explain how much i love her and how much i miss her.

i cannot find a place where you do not exist,
my hearts still leaves the door open a little,
for YOU to step in.

unrEasOnablE excUsE

2009-07-08T08:15:00.000-07:00

this two years this is my first time i feel that im so useless cause i cant let her feel that my love to her is real and it's not fake..if you treat me as your lifebouy i dont mind you said that to me..but for the reason you give me i dont think i can accept it..if you treat me just a normal friends and just use me to pass your free time..this reason i can accept..but you tell me for any other reason no la..i dont think so..you think i treat you as what?bubblegum??tissue??no..you are just like my heart.do you think you can ask me to live without my heart?and go after others without my heart???it's all bullshit..i cant imagine you said that to me..i want you to know..the feeling is not just like or love so simple..in a short time like this..you gave me a special and wonderful time..for damn long i never have all this kind of feeling.you want me to search for others who will give me this kind of feeling?

i feel that im so stupid and fucked up cause i cant do anything..it makes me cant do anything now,just think of you.im trying my best to call her now but i think her phone is off now.i dont know what to do now,feel so blank in my mind.

COLLEGE!?!

2009-07-06T07:36:00.000-07:00

today i woke up early and i went to college to register all the subject..damn alot of ppl..i feel nice to go back coll but everydays i need to wake up before 7 cause my class will start at 830..damn cham right?but something motivate me to wake up early everyday..hehe:)

wait!
do you feel like this before?you feel that you cant live without her,missing her all the time,want her to stay beside you and all the special feeling..i got it!finally i got it.she gave me the special feeling like i must see everyday,if not i will feel like uncomfortable..i think she is the first one who make me feel so sooooo.....sooo...after two and a half year.i miss this kinda feeling!when she is beside me,even though how sleep am i or how moody am i,i will be fine once she is beside me..maybe i have alot of things to correct so that i can match her..but anyways i will always try my best cause of her..actually today i cant go back late,but i choose to fetch her here and there just to spend time with her..i dont care how far is it..i just hope the car will just stop there and dont move.so i can spend the whole day with her.she is the first one who gave me this kinda feeling.SHE IS THE FIRST ONE!!everyone give me diff feeling.but hers is the most special one.
:):):):):):)happpppppyyyyyyyy!:D

2nd of june,2009,outing!

2009-07-03T01:12:00.000-07:00

yesterday weisheng woke me up around 10 something.asked me about the plan for yesterday..then i told him the whole plans and asked him to ask meili whether i pick her up or she drive me there..then later i got her msg,errr ask me to pick her up..so around 2 something i went to pick meili and weisheng up.
actually i asked one of my friend out also..this was my friends i know her not that long..just a few days only.but i asked her out for a movie.actually i thought she will drive there herself,but not good right?

so i went and fetch her in taylors:)
cause i dont want her to drive there so mafan.
cause after that we all going the same destination.means AC.

we watch ICE AGE 3.the show quite funny and it was quite interesting also.after the movie,we went to AC together.play pool and foos.around 7 something we went down to have dinner.

this weisheng a bit too much,order the drink and made me sit down and pay for him.then he himself go walk around with meili and order food..too fucking much:)but nvm la..my bro ma.just pay for him lo.

oooooppsssss..i never tell you all what is my friend's name yet right..haha:)her name is rachel:)nice name right?at night we planned to go either hartamas or alsafa.

but at the end our final decision was hartamas.cause we dont want to spend the whole night in alsafa just shisha.so we went breakers and foos.later only go davies and shisha.i asked rachel to go hartamas also..to teman me la.she is a nice and pretty girl.she gave me a comfyy feeling.
and meili also told me about her,said that she is friendly not like other girls even though that was the first time they met,i think they can become good friends if we plan more outing:)

on the way sending meili home,i went to desa park city and buy credit.walking in the 7-eleven,i saw two ang-mo were buying alot of stuff.then they talk to the cashier alot of things.something their house were having some party and they have one prostitute in their house,that time i stone there.im like wtf.then after they ciao,the cashier asked me what they both said?then i told them PEREMPUAN la..then the sohai cashier damn happy and say it in malay,i want to join also..ask them wait for me..haha:)this kind of people damn funnyyy..

2009-06-27T03:27:00.000-07:00

stupid yoonwei came back from aussie..he just called me and ask me go and view his fb profile to see the pics..he and tiffany..oh okay..i just viewed his profile.the pics not bad but some of them the light too bright so cant really see clearly..i think i need to let it down and shouldnt keep hoping for her to come back right?i think i should just work harder on my studies..all this i think i should just dont think about it first..i dont think this is the way i should go..turn behind and choose ONE MORE TIME!
太过执着未必是件好事，有时放手会让对方好过！现在不行，不代表十年后也不行！
放开咯.

doNt aPpreciAte wHen She bElonGs to yOu,rEgrEt=0

2009-06-18T09:39:00.001-07:00

this necklace i bought it from genting theme park..i dont know why i buy also..that time actually i went in the shop with wengfoong while waiting for charles,sheng and keechong finish playing the cup thingy..so went in and see..but when i think of the necklace she bought for me.i just want everything that can have words,i will put her name there..but not everything..especially my HEART!

2009-06-18T06:11:00.000-07:00

that day came home from genting without any pic so i upload it now..hehe:)we went alot of places to take pictures..like camwhore gang haha:D

2009-06-14T19:51:00.001-07:00

OMG!!today i woke up the earliest..cause i need to ask my parents about going genting trip..just one night..but the thing i feel happy not cause of this,'you'made my day.one msg,happy the whole time!i think cause of your msg made me feel so happy nowadays.i dont know why and how,i will smile just out of a sudden.maybe i think of you.nothing and nooone else.JUST YOU!!now is around 1053,i just finished watching NBA finals. LAKERS WON THE TITLE!!!YEAHH!!see when i happy no matter which team i support,will come out a happy ending for me..haha:)thanksssss..

2009-06-14T07:01:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!i feel so happy and excited now..this is the first day i feel SO DAMN FREAKING HELL happy.i saw the colour of the sky.why?haha..i think i should keep it to myself...YESSSSHSHHHHHHHHH!!!:):):):)
today everything become good and prefect!hehehehe:D
aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...happy,happy and happyyyyyyy:)

2009-06-13T10:18:00.001-07:00

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh:(:(:(

the day i got it!

2009-06-13T09:58:00.000-07:00

from the start til now..i did wrong..i shouldnt write anything realted to her on this blog..this made her feel scary..i scare her..ooppsss..sorry..you all know i'm not trying to scare her or anything..right?im just telling her i still need her,thats all..but okay fine..she doesnt like it this way..so i just keep it to myself lo..easy way!i dont know why when i know she scare of me that time..the moment like damn shocked..the whole 3 years i never let her scare of me..and this is the first time.i feel damn stupid doing all this.i thought all this i can make her think i still love her.but im wrong.she think that im stupid to do that..and asked me to move on.do you think i can move on like this?no right?
nvm la..i think i will pass all these day with the status 'SINGLE'.

2009-06-12T10:13:00.000-07:00

ahhhhhhhh...:):)i just got back from hartamas..i went out around 930..i told my parents i will be back around 12..haha..i late for 1 hours only go back..cause i went to foos with weisheng.half way playing,i think of her again.why?why i suddenly think of her?i never go there with her before.why?cause when i sawthe atmosphere the first person i want to spend time with,is not the foos table or look around for girls.the first one i think of her.i want to hold her hands and go there..even though i hold her hands and dotn play foos i will be very happy..imagine the one beside you is the one who you love the most..mine is her..but she doesnt stay beside me..i can just imagine she is beside me..the whole day i think of her.today i woke up around 4..actually i woke up at 9 cause this morning channel 812 have the bb match(lakers and magic).but when i opened my eyes and i turned to see the clock.is time!but i told myself cant..i cant wake up now..cause the whole night i never dream of her.so i went back to sleep..finally i dream of her again.im so happy when i woke up:):)i cant see her,cant talk to her,so that is the only way i can see her and talk to her as much as i want..hope later can dream again..

2009-06-11T01:20:00.000-07:00

when someone try to stop you from writing something..like how she stop me from writing this blog.she doesnt see a point of it..but i think it means something to me..last time everyone think that it has no point i get together with her..but i see a point of it..so i got together with her..when i think of something that i want to do,noone can stop me..like noone can stop me from loving one person who has bf or whatever..so what??i love her doesnt mean i must get together with her right??i just want to talk to her,chat with her like a normal friends..do you think i so stupid still think that i can get together with her?YA,im stupid every night before i sleep i think of her..when im sleeping i dream of her..dream is not about we both get together or doing something like kiss or hug..just that normal stuff happened in my dream..i just sat down and chat with her and we both were smiling,that's why im so happy when im in my dream:):)everyone were telling me i've no more chance to get with her..not even 0.001% cause it was a past!!and it wont happen in the peresent..haha:(:(
nooone can understand me..everyone just like last time asked me to stop dreaming and think of something gonna happen..do you think i like to dream?you are wrong..i hope everything are real and not in the dream..but..but..do you think anything impossible will happen..last time all the happy time will be history and it wont repeat again..cause when you did something wrong,everything gone!!!!want to start over again...IS TOO LATE!!

2009-06-06T11:51:00.001-07:00

i think is just too late.
when she is belongs to you,
you never think of appreciating her,
after she left you,
only you think that is too late.

stupid right.?
i can do everything for you,
just for you to forgive me.
last time i crazy for you,
i dont think anything change,
i still can crazy for the girl i love for 4 years.
still remember i entered sri kdu,the first day i reached there,
not to see how's the school,
i saw her..
out of a sudden,my mind was blank.
i know and i told myself she is the one i'm finding.
i wait for her for 1 years.cause that time ck still there..
he was crazy for her.he did everything for her.
and he did something that noone can imagine.including me.

im the second one who crazy for her,
she made me feel like im the only one for her.
i feel so happy,
do you try this before?
1,feel happy when you have something upset?
2,feel happy when you get scolded?
3,feel relax when your trials just tomorrow?
4,feel nothing when you fight with your parents?
5,feel unhappy when she is not around you?

I TRIED ALL THIS BEFORE.CAUSE OF HER..CHANGE MY LIFE INTO ONE WONDERFUL AND COLOURFUL WORLD.I REALLY APPRECIATE IT.NO MATTER HOW MANY PPLS OBJECT THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN ME AND HER.I STILL TOGETHER WITH HER..MY PARENTS ASKED ME TO LEAVE HER AND HAVE MY OWN LIFE..DO YOU THINK I CAN LIVE IN PEACEFUL WITHOUT HER?
I THINK OF HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO HUG HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO KISS HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO SHARE MY FEELING WITH HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO SEE HER MSG EVERY MOMENT.

but i cant anymore,i lost her.
and
i cant get her back no matter how much thing i do for her now!

you think im stupid to write this thing to her?i dont think so..
still remember before we broke up,she asked me to c8 a blog and write it everyday to tell her how was my life after she left to aussie..but i dont have this chance anymore..

TIFF I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH!!
<3 jun(0308am)

holidays should be happy?but...i'm not!

2009-06-02T10:05:00.000-07:00

it's really hard for me you know..how long i spent my time together with her?i also dont know cause im enjoying my life with her..one time i seriously lying down my bed and think of the me and her..still remember last time i tell myself this girl i can together with her damn long..cause we love each other alot..like we cant live without each other..but now the ending is we broke up.i dont know is this ending i want..i cant hope for any other ending cause it's really far for me to say this anymore..im trying so hard just hope for her one word reply..but i cant..she hate me til doesnt want to reply me even just one word msg..last two weeks i think of her almost every weeek.cause i know in my heart still have the space for me..but the place will be empty forever..she wont forgive me til the moment i close my eye and meet my grandfather..maybe this is the worst decision i made ever..i shouldnt let her go..i should say i was wrong til i cant forgive myself.why?why i did the stupid decision and now im making myself regret..i dont hope the second wrong decision i make in my life..i cant take it anymore..
anyways i also dotn think any girls like me this kind of guy..so i dont think any decision i need to make..i think i will be single in my whole life..haha..
tiff..sorry,i dont hope for your forgive and i just hope you forget me this kind of stupid guy..i bet you've already done!right?haha..thanks.
the pic will be the last pic i post up..sorry tiff if you mind.

i still love her.....

2009-05-30T09:10:00.001-07:00

i think of her again..i dont know why i will just keep thinking of her..maybe she gave me a good and bad memories..til now i still cant find a gf..haha..maybe it's my look problem..hard to find one gf..i think tiffany also feel regret have me as her ex bf..haha..everyone keep telling me how can wenjun get tiffany..tiffany so hot,and wenjun just like a normal guy..haha..i also cant get it why she will choose me as her ex..til now this is still mysterious..i dream about her last week..i think it's tuesday..before i went to college to have my exam..i saw her in my dreamland..i feel damn happy cause i dream about she talk to me after very long..i smile til i woke up..but my smiling face just can last til the moment i woke up..cause when i opened my eyes,i saw that noone is beside me.my mood just like the season swing here and there..
i feel damn sad when i cant see her..i dont know whether that time i broke up with her is a right decision or a wrong decision..that time after i broke up with her..we still talk..but after half of the year..we never talk til today..no matter how long msg i sent to her..she also never reply me one word.i feel damn sad and no mood..she is like my only one who can make me smile the longest and cry for the longest..she left alot of thing to me..happiness sadness suprise excitment and alot of thing..i want to say a thanks to her..but now i cant even talk to her..cant get her reply..even i say a hi,she also wont reply me cause for her the mistake i made is big big big til i cant do anything to replace it..

long long time never blog!

2009-05-21T07:42:00.001-07:00

wow..damn long never post d right?i also dont know what to post..my blog like abit dead..haha..cause like sometimes just dont feel like blogging..damn sien..alot of things happened in college..(sunway)!all the topic test finished,and the final exam is near the corner..and i still going out everyday like no exam like that..i also no mood to study la..last time got gf..the gf will asked me to study..you know la..when gf asked i sure study one lo..but now single..abit hard for me to study la..i found that the fish pond is become bigger and bigger..now only i found many kind of fishes inside the pond..i try to choose one to substitute my old fish..but it's hard..when you want to catch the fish..sometimes the fish dont want to get up..no matter how hard you try you also cant..but sometimes when you dont want the fish will jump around and ask you to want..weird right?haha..and one more thing..my college got one hot lecturer..haha..do you know who is that?if you know write the answer in my chat box..:D:Dtogether with your name..dont use other people name pls..fucker..!!:p
picture now i dont have..but i promise i will take more photo for you all to see..

all of a sudden.

2009-04-20T08:10:00.000-07:00

i dont know what to say to you anymore..just that something still inside my mind made me still cant forget you..yesterday was me asked sh…to asked you..cause i dont know what to do anymore..i know i hurt you damn alot..but i think now you also nothing d..but for me..i regret so much which cannot change anything in real life between you and me.last two year we broke up..i damn hate you..hate you til like almost forget you..because you were so demanding and unreasonable.but i dont know why i still love you..now i think back you just love me too much til you cant stop all that..now i want it from you.but i know it;s too late for me to say that.now you are in aussie..i cant do anything..i still keep all the thing you gave me..you know..i told all of them i still miss you..every night i also think of you like how i thought of you last time..but now how much i think of you also useless..wenjun in your mind already become a stranger who you want to ignore him and dont want talk to him even one word..why human always regret after they did the damn stupid thing..just like me!!i dare to say that my love to you now keep increasing til the stage that i cant control anymore.i want to decrease it but it's just like moving the aeroplane with my bare hand..i dont want this kind of feeling,i glade to show everyone that you are my gf..i dare to tell them i still miss you..i dare to show them the cards you gave me during my birthday.even though they said you treat me damn bad and all..i dont think love is count like that.it's from the heart.i love you,i need you like how the fish need the water.now you got a bf there..i heard it from someone.so nowi think teowenjun is totally disappear from your mind.i hope i can do something but i totally cant..I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!i just feel the the sky is so dark and everything is not belong to me.everyone told me that i should move on and shouldnt think of her anymore cause they said the fish pond got so many fishes why you dont want to try on other fish and wait for the specific one..they also said that the forest got so many trees..why i want a tree and dont try on others.i tried and i just cant anymore..im exhausted trying all this..maybe i did a wrong decision to let her go..i damn regret to made a most STUPID decision ever..i cant forgive myself..everyone said that it's too late for you to think of all this..but i just cant stop myself from thinking all those impossible thing..all the things she gave me i still keep it.the photos,the cards,and all those things..

2009-04-13T05:10:00.000-07:00

aiya accidentally press enter so one line only..
sorry so much.today after coll..everyone very steady.cause once we said yum cha everyone never say no..just said YES..so when we reached rasta there is 5 cars there..yoonwei,meili,karmun,wengfoong and karmun s' car there.we joined 3 table together..then chezhen brian and jeekin followed meili's car..then amy followed karmun's car..me and weisheng followed wengfoong's car..then keechong and yoonwei drove there alone..ghiajun drove jienyoong there..cedric came later around 7 something..someone said today i wont ffk you one..do you know who the hell is that?that is keeefyyy leee..said damn loud today i wont ffk you one..but at the end what is his excuse?errr the ldp damn jam so i stayed at home..good excuse right?what kind of bro is this?we ordered 3 shisha..grape mint,watermelon mint and one shisha that yw ordered one i forgot..the first time i saw meili and jeekin shisha..haha damn funny..then we play chor dee..got 2 set of cards..so each table one..play til half way all feel damn sien..cause 2 set of cards got 8 ppls playing only..other ppl will be stoning there..so at the end we decided to play truth or dare..alot of funny things happened haha..at first chezhen kiss yoonwei nose..then chezhen took off shirt..and wengfoong grab yoonwei ass..wengfoong kiss my neck..karmun kiss meili's eyebrown..somemore i did push up on the spot 15times..all the ppl looking at me..all thought im sohai.meili you ah..somemore ask me do star jump in front of everyone..random dare..haha but it's fun la..then we all left rasta around 730 la..cause all the girls dont want go back too late..scare parents angry..so yeah..i followed meili's car back..thks meili anyways..pictures all not with me..so cant upload..

we all went to rasta together..

2009-04-13T05:08:00.000-07:00

2009-04-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

damn long never blog d..cause i also dont know what to blog..anyways thks bros..thks for your accompany to ac and police station..thks alot..if without you all i also dont know what to do..but sometimes ah i just cant tahan you all..we all bros dont keep tease each other la mahai..everytimes fought for girls..i dont want mention anyone of you..just know yourself k?the mouth said dont have but what is inside the mind..nooone know..just yourself!remember that k?if you want to choose the girls rather than bros..i just keep my mouth shut and just lost one bro..i never mention anyone of my bros..but i dont hope all this happen on any of my bros..
today kimberly damn fucking garang la..ask her want to watch FAST AND FURIOUS or not..she answered me watch yourself la..wow..then after class ask her again..she asked me go and watch with my mother..im like wth..but the way she said it damn cute..haha..no other meaning just said it for fun..after coll we all went to rasta shisha..yoonwei,weisheng,charles,keefe,wengfoong,musclewong,jienyoong and me..ordered two shisha..one is double apple mint and another one is grape mint..after that around 730 then we all decided to go hartams foos..haha..i think we all addicted to it d..and we saw jessie there..so we all play double with jessie and her friend..we all went back around 830..cause tmw got english test so need to study..now damn late d..tmw need to wake up early follow meili's cargo to college..sien la..why college so stress.?ciao

today i dont know how to describe):

2009-04-02T08:18:00.000-07:00

this morning i followed meili's car.brian and edric also following..cause today is mufy game..so we dont have class today..we just went to college and play for the match..we reached there then start to warm up and getting ready to play for the match..actually i play basketball one..then keefe they all playing football..they asked me to play keeper for them..but i want to play basketball...so i just play for both..but i played football for first half only.then i went to play basketball with wengfoong and reggie.we won 3 lost 1.so we waited and continue play..but unfortunately the football team lose to the africa team 2-1..so wasted..our team quite strong one..but just lack of some luck..then my basketball team can just reached quater final.then lost to the nigel.yup they are quite good.causee they have the height.
after that i went to chezhen hostel to bath with ghiajun cause they all went to keefe house and bath..after that we went to ac and play foos..before we go there..something happened again..wenggfoong car no batt..so cant move we help him to push the car to one side..then we went for lunch only decide what to do..when im there zec car was there to help charge wengfoong car d..then he sent his car to workshop to repair..
when we reach ac..our whole gang bros went there..weisheng keefe wengfoong edric yoonwei charles brian zec jienyoong and chezhen..once we reached there,start to foos d..zec teached us how to play..so later we went to play 1on1..the incident happen now..i wore a pants without any pocket so i hold my phone and wallet on my hands..actually i waited for one table to play with either charles or keefe one..so i left my wallet and phone beside the table.i waited damn long..so i went to the table just behind keefe table..i played with weisheng..after i finished my game with him..ALL GONE!!my phone and wallet lost!!!i asked keefe they all..he said just now still here but when he want to leave the table he saw it's not there d..so he thought i took it..but mahai i never take..everything gone..my IC,ARM,driving lesen and all my money..who the fuck go and take my wallet..take the money enough la..mahai took my ic all that for fuck meh..chao hai..i dont understand all this sohai ppl..this cb who took my wallet and phone i want his whole family also kena the same thing..i want they know how come they have this kind of son..mahai..fucking pissed now..damn sad no phone to use now..so after that we went to pyramid and watched the movie called ....forgot the name diuu..something about shopping one..after finished the movie..wengfoong fetch kimberly back to her house then all of them teman me go to AC to find the supervisor and check the CCTv but unlucky the CCTV just faced to the last entrance and the cashier.im like wtf..why he dont put the CCTV can see everywhere..FUCK!!FUCK!!!why today i so fucking bad luck..mahai.i want my phone back..why treat me like that la diuuu..not used to it when the phone not with me..when i get back my new phone i will try to get all my contact back.bad day!!fucking bad mood now..zzz..

2009-03-31T07:12:00.000-07:00

today i damn lazy to blog la..maybe tomorrow i will blog two days together ...dont know why today so tired..actually i want to blog about edric yoon wei meili one..but aiya too tired so maybe tomorrow la..i will snap more photo to upload here..
nights everyone!

reached home!!(2100pm)

2009-03-30T06:04:00.000-07:00

damn tired today..reached home straight away blog d..steady right?should i block my blog ah?so that just my friends can see my blog?/what you all think?
today who im going to post about?maybe all my bros will know..BRIAN again..haha:)this guy is the KING of the cock..ehh not everyone can be like him one you know..he is the cuttiest,smartest and the most special one..haha:)AND AND the most sohai one..he always said that meili is his wife..always went to her house and have dinner..her grandma treat him damn good la..always take care of him la..said that meili never LIKE him..just that she LOVES him..we like wtf..damn cb right?who think what i said is right..leave a comment to me.tell us what you think about what brian said?must leave your name with the comment..cause i want to know who..meili you dont need to comment la..haha..cause is related to you..right?meili sorry i said rough words in your car..sorry to you also jee kin..i know you both never swear one..so i apologise here:)meili tell you something..we love you more than brian love you..:p you should know who to choose?haha..you either choose brian be your husband or we be your husband..brian can play instrument only..and we can play more than that..we can make you happy every night..hahahahahaha:)like edric yoonwei weisheng also damn like you one..haha:)sorry bro..:0 ehh just now i went to rasta saw this hot chick.i think i never spell wrong her name is kaori..she is a japanese..she damn hot..but she have a bf..if if if let me get her ah..wow..damn chun..haha..of course i will treat her better than her bf la..but all this can happen just in my dream..so hopeless..hehe:)i no more pic to upload la..eh tmw someone bring camera to college..see whether i got camera at home anot..if not then someone help me bring la..then we can cam-whore..damn lala right?but no choice need to post up to blog..so yeah..brian brian brian..careful when you walk under the rain..be careful when you cross the road..be careful when you eat..careful when you drink..anything will happen to you..i know it wont happen la..but but but ..you know what?we will make it happen..hehe..BRIAN THE BESTT!!!!

2009-03-29T08:12:00.000-07:00

cb today very headache dont know why..after futsal from 2 to 4 then keefe julian weisheng yew loong brian and me went rasta straight away..then we stay there til 6 something then we left..i fetch brian home after that..i fetch him to HOHO steamnboat rest..then i ciao home..my grandms they all came to my house..actually want to go to puchong have steamboat also..but rained heavily so we cancel the dinner have it at home..suddenly i get a bad headache..dont know why..it just came suddenly..til now i also feel damn pain..like very dizzy painful..FUCK LA!!
i feel damn suprise now(it's 2315)..you know why?cause my ex finally repliedme after damn long..i broke up with her cause of something..but now i dont know why i still miss her so much..whenever i passed by the place that i spent time with her i will straight away think of her..no joke..i love her more than everything that time..maybe i did a wrong decision that let her go..no chance luuu...if you give me one more chance..i wont let her go..even tough we fought like hell..
HEADACHE LAAAA!!!!FUCK!!

2009-03-28T09:43:00.000-07:00

2009-03-28T09:00:00.000-07:00

just came back from batu pahat..when i reached home then brian said wanna go out yum cha..then i asked my dad..then i went out..but when i called brian he said having dinner so cant go..so i went with yoonwei and weisheng to the bu area there shisha..later yew loong came and join us..we shisha there around one hour plus..then yooonwei only went and buy cards to play..wth right..should go and buy earlier ma..then we play chor daidee..play til like 1130 then we ciao home..i need to rushed home some more..cause i need to be back by 1130..but i left there at 1130 pro right?i post the pic up for you all to see la..but not today one..but still this week one la..like few days ago only.

tell you something

2009-03-26T06:12:00.000-07:00

do you know when you like one girl what is your normal reaction?maybe for you all is like try to talk to her more..go out with her more and get to know her more..but for me..i'm not very very shy talk to girls..i can talk to other girls as in a normal way..but when i'm facing the girl who i like..not i dont want to say..just that something was like stuck in my mouth..do you think i dont want talk to the girl i like?i want to..i want to talk to her so much..but im like that..since the first gf i also like that..starting i seldom talk to them one..but at the end i also can get..all my bros said i SOK CHUN but im not la..diuuu...just that im not used to it only..i tried to talk to her more..but like when i was facing her that time..i was thinking how pretty was her..til i cant think of anything to say to her..i like to look at her everytimes..after i came out the class the person who i hope to see is her..early in the morning the first person i thought of is her..but when i look at her i feel nervous and awkward..the feeling noone here can understand..i know all of you damn brave but not me.sorry..but i think im going to do something to make it up..if not i will lose..jason careful..:p

the time we shisha at rasta!!all enjoying!

2009-03-25T08:42:00.001-07:00

2009-03-25T08:16:00.000-07:00

brian thanks for helping me added in the chat box..now you all can chat whatever you all want in there..today dont know what to blog also..damn boring la..today we went to ac..all bros also went together..we went there to have lunch and play foos..(as usual)..but charles keefe weisheng edric zec all went back to college cause their class start at 245..so they cant stay long there..left brian wengfoong yoonwei chezhen and me there..i tell you this zec ah..i dont know he is born to play foos or what..the foos skill like godlike la..no wonder he said no challege in ac..before that all of us dont trust him one..cause we saw one guy quite pro also but after that we know who is the most pro one..the brian ah..always play with all the noob one..then he can sneak in front of them but play with our bros he like frying chicken wings..haha:p sorry brian..and one more thing damn funny..he talked alot in meili's car..after college edric brian one of meili's friend and me..brian said that meili's grandma asked him go her house to eat porridge cause he said her grandma know brian mouth injured so purposely prepare porridge for him..haha..then we said that meili use the mouth and feed brian..edric said after feed then make out:D:D haha..brian said i always made out with meili..so he said used to it..we like wtf..then i saw brian never wer the safety belt..i said if later got accident you sure fly out one..he said nvm..i die is okay..if seriously got accident brian said will use his muscle to save meili first..hahaha..then later we all tired d..never talk all damn sleepy in the car..til i reached home..thanks meili for fetching me home..AGAIN!!

about sunway college

2009-03-24T07:12:00.000-07:00

hey i went to college so long still never mention all my new friends yet..okay the english class i know damn alot of ppl..lisa,liesha,dickwin,jason,felicia who look like jessie,sunny,jeremy and weng foong are my bros..liesha very nice to me..she taught me how to do the english thingy..thks liesha..others in my english i know them but still dont know the name sorry all..but i will try to get your name soon..i will..trust me..
besides got one more is zec..he is my senior..his foos ah..like god la..but keefe,charles,yoonwei,edric they all always said that can beat him flat..i dont know why also..especially MY BESTESR BRO MOO YOON WEI..he said use left hand can settle zec..he always said that he is vidic who play for manu..im like why you still studying in sunway?why dont go manu and play football??right?
and one more thing is that i saw one japanese girl.she damn hot..but got bf d..whenever we saw her with the bf right..we sure said wasted..cause she deserve a better one..she is not very very hot..she is just that very attractive,from diff angel she looks diff..sometimes cute,sometimes pretty..
our college march intake also not alot of hot chick la..now i still see any chick yet..SHE still the best in my heart:p
hey tomorrow break time we all going AC k?all bros must go together..go there foos makan and talk cock there..brian weisheng edric yoonwei keefe charles chezhen wengfoong chris jienyoong all must go..deal!!!
just reached home not even shower yet..sticky like cock..go bath first..blog til here la..pics are not available yet..cause all my frens never send me the pics..so next time la..and if anyone know how to put the chat box on my blog righ..just leave a comment and teach me how to do it..thksssssssss..

2009-03-24T02:49:00.000-07:00

im at keefe's house.with wei sheng because meili cant fetch me home..why>?cause the car too crowded.edric chezhen brian and one fella staying in desa park city.now i want to talk about my BESTEST BRO!!!do you know who is that?MR MOO YOON WEI.
okay the story start from here.the time is 240..okay the story is like that..
i saw adeline near the 2-1 class there..then im near the s-m-i-l-e lab..me chatting with zec weisheng and brian also there..then suddenly yoonwei and chezhen come from adeline side..then they brought ade come to my side..im like wtf..but im happy also la..cause i can see her..but suddenly the SMARTEST yoonwei go and told adeline tht he wanted to intro one friend to her..i know he surely talk about me one..im like i know her d what..then he was like i intro one friend to you..his name is PARIAAA JUN.wow..my anger was like the lava coming out from the volcano.the fucker cb always like that one..wtf right..that is the way he intro his friend?always said that brother..brother..wtf man..i damn dulan this kind of ppl one..mahai./i dont understand why also..who can tell me why the hell this kind of ppl in our gang?he doesnt know what to say at the right time..damn fucking sad for him..last time brian ..now yoonwei..why all mybros must treat me like that..why??????why???

2009-03-23T19:55:00.000-07:00

need to do correction abt the acc..info ant outcome of law may be relevant,but financial impact cannot measured reliably.

about accounts!!

2009-03-23T07:32:00.000-07:00

cb la tmw is account test d la..im just posting what i read..hehe:)
wait wait..i saw meili online..i asked her whether can fetch me anot first.
DONE!!:p
alot to study right..reliability la..relevance la..income statement la..balance sheet some more..fuck la!
relevance(financial info is relevant if has capacity to influence users to understand the past perfomance and influence economic decision that RELATED to allocation of scarce resources)u think econs meh..diuu..
(TO HAVE predictive and COMFIRMatory,timeliness)
reliable it should be neutral-the entity should not present the favourable light to influnce users.and it can be achieved by ensuring that transactions are accounted following their substances and economic reality and not according the legality, should be free from material error, should be complete AND should be verifiable (should be supported by relevant doc)
CONFLICTS!?
some info can be relevant but it cannot be measured reliably.like guys can get girl A but cannot get girl B at the same time..cause it is not good!!quantitative and qualitative?you should know that the both words mean right?in financial statement contain quantity only.(quantitative)qualitative cannot be use cause cannot verified.better info can be provided if more $$$ and more time to prepare the financial statement.the financial report
result in greater reliability but relevance is lost as the info not timelyyy!!
the balance must be struck in between 1.)must be quick to produce financial statement to be relevant, 2.)time is needed to increase the quality of info become more reliable.
cost of providing the info and the speed which the info is provided is more accurate.
posted by juniee from the stupid lecture notes.

2009-03-23T06:14:00.000-07:00

damn sleepy sleepy..dont know why also..today the first day of college after weekends..dont feel like going..need to wake up early in the morning..hyh..but today english class right..i learned alot of thing..cause ms farHANA taught me how to do the thesis statement.thanks ms hana..but i need you to teach me more cause my english very sucks./everyone know that right?after that i have no more class..all my friends went to ac together..as usual my whole gang of bros..i drove chris's little MVY..look quite powerful but haha damn slow..no matter how hard i accelerate the meter also stay in between 80 and 90..haha:)we need to get back college at 245..cause all ofthem have class..but me..dont have any class..damn sad need to be alone there again./.fuck la..the edric said want to come out teman me..alot of cocks one..never come out at all..lucky brian came out..but sorry brian made you get scolded..haha..then later wei sheng also came out 20 mins before the class end..college look very relax right?haha.."i think so".tomorrow got accounts test!thursday got econs test!next week tuesday got math test.."damn relax"i also dont know college is so relax..cb.

2009-03-21T10:46:00.000-07:00

eh guys i dont know how i post the blog..so if you pass by here..accidentally see this blog..give me some comment..thanks so much for that:)
today i also nothing to blog about..at night la..just now edric called me asked me whether im going hartamas anot?i said most probably no..he said meili all there..im like okay..later yoonwei called me again..asked me go the same place..said meili jien yoong wei sheng all there..asked me to go..i teman my parents went ou have dinner so i cant go..he said like tonight alot of chick ask me must go..if not i will regret..i hope i can go..but i must stay there..tomorrow morning i need to wake up early cause i need to go college for the basketball tournament..something about the charity one..jason(muscle wong) asked me to join one:p so i asked wengfoong join with us also..

2009-03-20T07:53:00.001-07:00

STRESSS!!i need to blog about many ppl today/.i also dont know where should i start from..erm..college la..early in the morning i reached college cause my class is at 945..i suppose to follow meili's car one..but my mom is fetching my sis to uni so i just followed..suddenly my phone rang..guess who..CHARLES called..asked me where am i now..asked me go to college as fast as possible..i thought anything happen..then he told me alot of hot chick here asked me faster go and see..when i reached..they all standing at the 1st floor there..then i looked around..the hot chick shadow also cant see la..stupid charles..later we(charles wei sheng tim and me)teman jien yoong go do the register thingy..after that we went for math class..im like fuck la..all my stuff in zec car..so i cant do anything..when we went in the class,ms roslin gave us quiz.edric came late..you know why..went eat breakfast with meili brian and che zhen..normal right..is meili,sure edric want teman her longer.after that i got break,we went to rock cafe and we met meili there..so we sat together..but my bro keefy sat with (armpit)so yeah..and and and CALVIN also there.you all sure thinking who is that..he is a tall and nice guy..good in futsal also..and he like teh cawan alot.right calv?then suddenly talked about my blog..they have no more topic beside my blog..swt.!kept repeating what i wrote in my blog..lucky the yoonwei not there..cause his mouth will talk nonstop about this topic..then they said my blog lack of pics not interesting..tim took out the i phone started to take pics..we took alot of pics.after we took meili eating chao gui diao,she showed us the pissed face,then all the guys faster delete the pics d.dont know why also.
tired la..write so much.
and our econs teacher damn funny..charles asked about the econs whether got any other way to do it..what the teacher answer?got..HIGHWAY..we stunned for 3 second..damn lame.haha.after econs class im free.but i need to stay in college cause wait for all my friends to finish their class.this part when i talk about this i fucking pissed..talk about who..BRIAN!!!!
this smart guy really smart..he is the smartest guy in this world..
let me tell you one story..this guy A like the girl(ade),then they never talk in college before just msg only..cause he always no chance to talk to him cause this girl always with a whole group of friends.so no chance.but today a very good chance for him to talk to her.cause she was alone standing there at 2nd floor.then this guy walked to her and WANTED to talk to her..his heart like yess finally got this chance..when i reached and stood beside her..someone came..who?brian..so many place he dont want to stand,he choose to stand in between the guy and the girl..then started to talk to the girl,and he totally blocked the guy A view..cause he was facing the back to the guy.talk not for a while..like talk about history like that..he has no chance to talk to the girl at all..so he went off.he was fucking pissed.then this brian still dont know anything..he thinks he damn cute.then later his friends told him what happen.then what his reaction?REALLY?I DONT KNOW AND I FORGOT!good reason right.u all need to learn from him.he answered him that the girl kept looking at her and smile..so he went and talk to her.see brian handsome til the girl looked at him and smile.GOOD JOB brian.sad right?
then someone passed by..the youngest lecturer in mufy..MS HANA!haha..she was like kept walking around.dont know why..maybe she was searching her (jeff):p
after their class end it was 4..then we went and play futsal.got 4 team there.we consider not bad kept winning the strong team(calvin pannaf team) but lost to the jiao team..the jiao team play futsal like using hand play like that..i also dont know why we lost to them..insult!!we booked from 430 to 630..after the last game we all bros sat down there and chat..we talked about something.then i said MAKE SEX..keefe laugh at me..make sex..all started laughing.then he correct me that is have sex not make sex..ehh u all should correct me cause my english really bad.thks keefy.later we decided to go ac to play foos..after foos keefy and weng foong stay there and have dinner..then yoonwei weisheng ghiajun and me went to rasta meet up keechong yew loong and jienyoong.reached there had dinner shisha and chat.suddenly one car came(black jazzie-WKX 2383)fetching one girl.then yew loong like why he fetch sam here one..we like no la.is ABIGAIL.and who fetch her..CHARLES.around 10 they wanted to go hartamas play pool and foos.but i need to go back so they left.but abigail damn nice she waited for me.til my dad came.and charles also..actually charles want to leave one(i know charles)..but abi said wait for me.thks abi.
tired tired!!my fingers damn pain la..i got no pics to upload la..cause they never post up yet..or you can go my facebook and see..

2009-03-19T08:31:00.000-07:00

hey today i reached college very early in the morning..i was sleeping in the car while on the way to college..my class start at 945..i woke up 530..reached college 740..im like wtf..lucky brian was there..so we sat down and chat..then math class the ms roslin try to be funny with us..crake alot of cold joke..after that ah..wow..night mare..it was english class..ms hana asked us to write down the name phone no and email..while the paper passed to charles..he started to do stupid thing..after he wrote his info..then he helped me also..i thought this charles so good bro help me write..at the end charles never write down my email..write down the blog..im like WTF CHARLES!!!then ms hana like whose blog is that..you have a blog.?keefe jason edric charles started to talk about my blog..(the first time i saw ms hana angry,cause brian in our english class very rude to her..so she give him a pissed off face..then warned him not to do anymore)after the class my blog become the HOT topic(hotter than milo panas),all of them kept talking about my blog..all laughing there..i damn speechless.so i just kept quite and not do anything.

after college we went to sports planet(near our sunway college,opposite lambo show room)play futsal..fucking tired..yoon wei sent edric chezhen wei sheng timothy and me to ou,wei sheng and tim went to hartamas after reached ou.then we went to edric uncle restaurant by cab..after that my mom fetch me home had dinner and bathed..before that edric asked me to go yum cha..plus asked meili come along..(the main point is meili not me)all my bros damn cock one..i fetch meili to his rest then we yum cha ..suddenly when we were talking about brian..he called.then i need to fetch him from his house again..think the petrol station my father open one..cb..
and we went play pool and I TRASHED BRIAN!!no challenge.
are you happy?after read my blog..wei leave your comment after read this stupid thing..

Im in college now

2009-03-05T00:01:00.000-08:00

it's damn boring here la..nothing to do also..im trying to skip class now..keefe just asked me want to skip class anot?damn no mood sure i skip class la..haiyo..anyone can help me?fucking bored.!all my friends beside me now..they all talking about my accouts teacher here..cause she damn boring and old..fuck her la.i miss her la..ade*** where are you now?

2009-03-02T04:55:00.000-08:00

FUCKING BAD DAY!!!!

2009-03-02T04:29:00.000-08:00

i finished college at 515..my sister came and fetch me from college..actually i want to drive home..but then my sister never leave the driving seat..so i just let her lo..i fall asleep on the way home..when i woke up..OMG!!!!accident happened..fuck..when i opened my eyes alot of smoke in front of me..the air bag came out..im like wtf..then i asked my sister..accident!!then we faster ran out the car cause i saw the oil from the engine keep leaking out..luckily my sister never get any hurt..just the hand there bengkak.then she called my dad and at the same time the car blocked the whole way..it's after the LDP toll and before the caltex petrol station..if anyone know that..
the car just like the useless metal..the front tyre burst!the front mirror cracked!the (mirror that use to look behind) came out!the driving seat the door hard to open..lucky my sis managed to open it.the car looked serious damage!
when my dad reached the scene..my dad asked my sister "are you okay".then keep asking her alot of question..my heart like "erm excuses me i also in the car that time"lol..the funniest thing is after the car banged i'm still sleeping..haha..then after the air bag came out i still in my dream..after only i woke up..haha..

2009-02-28T00:59:00.000-08:00

MY BLOG VERY EMO MEH??where got i dont think so lo..cause i just telling you all how my life is going on..actually im damn happy everyday spending time with all my bros like charles ghiajun edric yw weisheng brian jeremy wengfoong and all..i damn happy to know all my new college friends..:):):):):)
you are so blur and stupid:p hah..u know who am i talking about..is you la..dont need to think who is that.haha..

i damn happy i know you:) __college?!

2009-02-25T07:54:00.000-08:00

i damn happy to know you..although we knew each other not even half the year yet..but i feel really nice and comfortable when im talking to you on the phone..your sound so sweet made my dream like honey..your soft voice made me happy..your face made me excited..hehe..oopss it's too much..but im happy to know you that's really true..

college is so tiring..i watch the manu match last night..wow..my eyes were like panda in the morning..i never sleep at all..but when i reached campus i dont feel tired at all..til now.. 25th of february(12am)..my friends said im abnormal..i dont know why also..later im going to watch chelsea match again..hmm..i dont know whether i can tahan anot..

hopee everyone have a nice day..:p

i dont understand why also?

2009-02-25T07:51:00.000-08:00

after broke up cant be friends?you treat me worse than a stranger..i dont like the feeling that i have now..it feels damn uncomfortable..dont know why.."someone told me that"..why the girl ignored the guy from the day they broke up ..the girl hardly talk to the guy anymore..the love in the heart so fast disappears?i dont know also..i want to know it also..the girl never feel anything when she did that to the guy..i also feel really weird about that..can you tell me?

everything in grey

2009-01-02T23:15:00.000-08:00

today i sick!really sick..when i woke up today i keep coughing and my nose block..feel suffer..when i stood up i feel headache..a bit dizzy..so i dont feel like eating..i just lie on the sofa and watch movie..i need to help my parents look after the workers to paint my house..
why the hell is me??
i dont want to get sick la.
it's so fucking suffer..damn!

27th of december,08

2008-12-27T08:06:00.001-08:00

today i woke up early in the morning..cause im going amali with tick..the agen damn fucker he doesnt want to fetch us from our place..need to trouble my mom to fetch us to ou there only they come to fetch us..wtf man!on the way to ou..i called my best bro-jy..he went for NS today..i also a bit sad cause he leave us for 3 months..it's not long period but also not a short period..he's my best bro i swear..he helps me in everything no matter what problem is it..i appreciate what he did for me..hope jy can faster get used to the place..the place is quite far..SABAH!some more he cant pass the chinese new year with us...SAD!!
the amali class was fucking boring..omg i swear it was terrible..the small room was hot and smelly..the whole room got 2 sohai air-cond..cant work at all..zzz.we slept for 3 hours in the class..cause i dont think what they said is useful..so i choose to sleep..buuuttt it was FUCKING HOT!after the 6 hours class..i went ou with tick to meet up my mom..we ate sakae sushi for lunch around 5..

2008-12-15T05:33:00.000-08:00

came back from PD.

2008-12-14T05:28:00.000-08:00

wow..excellent day in PD..i spent my 2 days holidays there..at first i went there almost like 2 hours plus..reached there omg the hotel i mean not consider it's a apartment..it looks so ugly dirty and smelly..when the lift open all the same type of ppl came out..im like wtf..the room look so disgusting..and dark..so we went and look for another hotel call avillion..that was a prefect and the best resort..just beside the beach..they have 3 swimming pool..pet gardens..inside the garden they have rabbit cock..i hold the 1 hand small rabiit..the workers tell me it is just 2 months baby..so cute..i hope i can bring it back..but i cant..i tried something new yesterday night..i went out with my sister around 12..then we walk around the beach and we went and collect seashell,..cause we saw a lot of ppl went to the sea and catch something..so we just follow from the beach..cause the sea left the ground i forget what is that call..all the seawater went off..we saw a lot of small crab walking around..that try to hide themselves into the hole..but some of them i brought back to kl..hehe:p and we saw nice and pretty seashells so just collect and bring back..it was so fun..and i swim in the midnight around 130..the first time i swam in the midnight..the feeling was good.i can feel the sea wind just slapping me all the time..but the sea water a bit dirty la..and i play banana boat also..FUN!i saw a lot of hot chick there..but not consider la..just can see la..just not like the 1st apartment all malay lo..here got angmo chinese indian malay..all got..bettter la..this really a fun trip..

now..

2008-12-11T11:24:00.000-08:00

now is early in the morning 0325..i cant get into sleep dont know why also..maybe you are runnning in my mind ..cause i cant sleep tonight..should i go after her..should i tell her i got the feeling to her..or i should just wait til the right time only tell her what i think..i dont know do i stand a chance for her??cause she is just like ermm..dont know how to explain in words..to find a relationship is so hard for me?maybe my face just cant attract any girl..maybe i cant give them happiness..so thats why i so hard to find a relationship...a sad day...

i feel the world is so dark.

2008-12-07T01:03:00.000-08:00

why i got this kind of feeling?
when i looked out the window i feel like so lonely and boreeed.
i want to find someone really can chat with me everything..or i find someone who can chat with me..
dont u think u have a gf and dont have a gf..each of this also bring advantage and disadvantage..
u think....
if u have a gf..

u cant do all this..(depends on your gf)
1,u cannot go out with yourfriends without her.
2,u cannot go out with your friends without bringing her..
3,u cannot dont buy present for her when valentines,birthday,and all..
4,u cannot do all the freedom thing that u want to do..
5,think yourself..

if u have a gf..

the benefit u can get..

u can
1,feel the love ur gf give you..
2,when u feel bored she's the one who can teman you..
3,when you feel sad or upset she can give you advise and let you happy.
4,she can make you feel you are the only one in the world..
5,she can make u feel proud when you bring her to the outing..
6,she can make you feel that she cant live without you..

so you should know what to do..
i never mention about any girls ..
im just telling what i think of that..
sorry if bring any offense to you(who is reading this text):p

should be happy?

2008-12-01T08:42:00.000-08:00

today i finished my exam-accounts..on 1st of december..i damn excited after the paper 1 cause paper in the morning only is paper 1 ..after the whole exam finished..me hong liew and ghia went to casa to bath and relax down..after that we went to station 1 in kd for lunch..i damn happy i got this gang of brothers..they are not my friends..they're my brothersss!!!later on me liew and hong went to blitz to meet up fat tick..then we play dota there only we go home by ourself..

today i damn sick..

2008-11-28T23:42:00.000-08:00

the day before yesterday i feel damn sick and feel a bit dizzy..i found that i got a headache..damn suffer.suddenly when i cough i found that my hand got a bit blood..im like wtf.the whole night i just pass in suffering.til now i still got a headache./.damn suffer.when i stand up i feel dizzy..and i just want to lie on the bed..i feel damn weak to do anything..when i cough i feel my chest damn pain..i ate porridge and i cant taste anything..SUFFER!!SUFFER!!!

finished the second last of my science paper..

2008-11-24T02:47:00.000-08:00

today i finally finished biology..at first i thought it will be damn hard..but paper 1 quite easy..but paper 2 is a a bit tough for me..i slept like half an hour cause i think of that very long haha:P but paper 3 is quite easy also
lucky yesterday night i looked through all the experiment..so just luckily i saw the VISKING TUBE..everyone thought others will be coming out..this also i can do a bit la..
not say cannot do at all..phew..waiting for physucs to finish...

why?why?why?

2008-11-22T09:10:00.000-08:00

why the world so unfair?why?when i want her she is not belong to me..i look at her my tears just like the rain drop dripping down my cheek..i just want to get with her..anything wrong with that?i just want a long relationship..why cant give me?i look at her pics im like flying to heaven,..when i know she's not belong to me..and i never have a chance..my heart just drop from heaven to the hell which i dont want.give me one chance if i can i will do everything for her..JUST ONE CHANCE!

like my mind flying on the sky
i will bring you along
i will never let go and tight
just one chance

still have 3 more to go

2008-11-21T08:06:00.000-08:00

i've 3 more subject to go.physics biology and acccounts.after that wow..FREE!!
suddenly wanna find someone who can really suitable for me..and i really like her a lot and start a new relationship..but it's hard to find one..who ever i see who is pretty most probably is older than me...why?why my mom born me so late?look at all the chun girl but cant do anything..i seriously jealous the guy who can get their girlfriend really pretty..dont know when is my turn..hope that day can reach faster..

lol..zz

2008-11-14T09:26:00.000-08:00

just passed SPM one week after the math exam i just like treating SPM finished..but it has a long way to go..like two more weeks..that's really finished cause accounts is like five days after it's on 1st of dec..so i have quite a lot time to prepare for it..i must do well for chemistry biology and physics..i damn scare i cant get credit..i hope it will come out as easy as sej or math..so i got confidence to get a credit or B.

byebye SEJ.

2008-11-12T02:54:00.000-08:00

from today on i wont touch the sej at all..cause finally finished the paper today..wow.is quite scary cause we dont know what is coming out..so we study like mad..at the end the paper was considered easy cause we study a lot..the paper easy then we worry the lvl of getting A will bring up..seriously we worried too much haha.:p tomorrow is the easiest subject ever..but i still need to do revision la..to avoid all those stupid silly careless mistakes..cause this is consider a free A for me..i need to do well for it..phewww...

the first day of spm.

2008-11-11T07:27:00.000-08:00

wow..finally finished BM paper 1 and 2..it;s not really that easy just can manage to do finish the max i can get for this subject is i think C..
the sej paper 1 is kinda hard for me..cause i never study much for sej.cause i cant memorise for shit..just try my best to TEMBAK!!
tomorrow is english and sej paper 2 wow..is a tough paper..i think im going to leave a lot of page blank..cause i dont think i know how to do the paper 2..

the one day before SPM@.@

2008-11-09T23:37:00.000-08:00

everyone were like very stress when i reached school today..
today our school got one SPM briefing at 0830.i saw everyone is EVERYONE holding sej books keep looking at the books cause the first day of the exam is sej and bm.
the time passes really fast..so fast is our form5 last year.FORM5 students we need to gambateh and get good result so that our hardwork never waste not even a bit..
i also hope what u guys study will come out at the question paper..get good result form5 buddies.wish u all good luck here.><
GOOD LUCK!

stupid champion league,zzz

2008-11-06T07:17:00.000-08:00

the stupid champion league made me always lose money hyh..yesterday just lost 300 plus..hyh nowadays the football really fake..bet this that one won..bet that this one won..how to bet?
today my bro just asked me whether want to go pna night?i think that is my last year to stay in this school i think i shoould just go for it..i dont think i can study at home cause i just study for it and i feel so tiring man..just study for a few hour then cant tahan d..damn useless la me..
i think i will continue tomorrow morning tonight just stop first la..but i think i need to put in a lot of effort to study for my last important exam..SPM!!

my life just like the busy road.

2008-11-03T07:12:00.000-08:00

everyday what i do was just tuition tuition and tuition..
boring la..today my last seminar was in the kasturi.the subject was account.the teacher look a bit nerd la.but he taught til quite details.so i understand what he tried to say.
the seminar just passed like half an hour ago..my eye just like the SUNFLOWER WITHOUT SUNLIGHT..keep going down.finally i fall asleep in the class..so embarrasing la.the teacher asked tick to wake me up..he still asked "u watch F1 yesterday night ah?"im like ....speechless continue my class.til the end of the class i walked out the class and saw my old school friend from chong hwa-jin zhuang.he was my old best friend last time maybe i change my school then we lost contact..but still okay la..not bad!

let us talk about something

2008-11-02T06:14:00.000-08:00

actually i dont know what to write for today one.
quite sien la today.dont know what to do.just study for a while then went for lunch lo..i hope the spm can pass faster.so that i can "WET"everyday after that..go clubbing with my friends,go out everyday,go stay over,can do a lot of thing la..
suddenly want to talk about all my pet sister.
my first petsis is cho ying but she went to korea d..she quite funny cause always very shy when i met her.but i treat her like my sis d..take care of her..haha:)
carmen and emily also my petsis..this both lame chop haha:)they became my petsis like quite long ago..i also dont talk to them much cause they not very close to me..so i cant help them eveen though they're facing problem.carmen is damn lame..she always did the stuff that we cant expect.can call it as stupid haha:)but i treat her like my sis d..emily leh..she got bf forget me this bro d lo..but if anything happen to her i also will help one.
kitt mun and kylynn..this two are the closest to me..this two i always see them cry one..so i also will try my best to let them happy back..both also like to bite ppl one.scary but they treat me very good la..
jasmine rudy liann jeanni also my petsis..but all of them also not close to me..i also never help them in anything just that chat with them once in a while..except jasmine..i like her before but not now anymore she's like my sis also..i also talk to her quite often..but just a normal conversation la..
all my sister also damn pretty and smart.some of them are cute but some of them are pretty..but but..half of them very lame..haha..especially the carmen..i hope all my sister also can happy and face everything from now on..anything happen tell your kor k?
your kor jun

another tired day.

2008-11-01T05:50:00.000-07:00

today i went to kdu college for the perfection seminar.omg the hall like the pasar mlm fucking a lot of ppl.all the teachers gave the seminar was very useful.just except for one stupid useless teacher name call lisa.she damn rude to all the students and she dont even know how to teach.even though english is a very easy subject to teach.we all like speechless when she sweared at the students.
then after the seminar we skipped add math and went to rastha to shisha.jy gj mt cc and me.we talked about how we feel and discuss about what to do after spm.this 4 friends are my really good brothers.they help me when i need help and they teman me when i need them.thanks a lot.

speechless

2008-10-31T06:48:00.000-07:00

I THINK if a raindrop can represents how much I love you, I would ask for a storm...

If I could be anything, I would be your tear so I could stay in your eyes, roll down your cheek, and die on your lips.you're so wonderful til i cant mention how you look like in a few sentences here.but all these poem are not important cause the best poem is come out from the heart.

If you give me a chance to write your name.i wouldnt write it in the sand cause the wave washed it away,i wouldnt write your name on a piece of paper,cause it will be missing anytime,i wouldnt write your name in the sky cause the wind will blow it away,finally i decide to write your name in one place.

-MY HEART-

the first day im write blog.

2008-10-31T06:03:00.000-07:00

today is my first day to write this blog,i just dont know why i will write this.cause i think it's quite troublesome to write it here everyday,but at the end i still do it cause i feel really bored.
i had a really tiring day.
today i had two tuition in a row.
yesterday i had three tuition in a row.
they were not in the afternoon,the first tuition always start early in the morning.it made me feel exhausted.but just til next month i'm free.i think i will write something up when im free or feel bored.