yO mUst dO iT nO maTTer wHat!

you should just throw everything out of your mind,think it simple and relax dont think too much.
i think i have change,before i get emo i will think of it whether should i?
today i did,i shouldnt do all the stupid thing,i need to be positive.i wont ever get emo again la.no point.haha.i found that i have changed into another person,i should be cold,nope.not cold just chilling and take it easy.
whatever anyone do i also wont put in my mind,just take it as a joke or bullshit.care too much will just stress you out.think before you do?
from now on whoever ask me to care i will just tell them dont stress yourself out,think it another way no matter what.be hhapy right?agree?hahaha:)

today is the earliset i post up my blog.

i dont really know what to post up,but i still post up la.nothing to do also so i just signed in my blog and write some shit here la.

i miss her and i cant msg her cause she is in the class now,i dont want to disturb her cause i want her to concentrate in the class.if im not mistaken she have alot of work to do.

finally i understand how is the day when you dont stress yourself up.is damn relaxing and cooling.i skipped my 11 class went and have lunch with all my bros.i dont know what to drink so i ordered carslberg to drink.i think im going to drink it everyday cause it can release my stress and let me dont think so much of thing.but then today i dont have any stress la.cause im always happy with everything.i dont want make myself think so much and dont want make her so stress.she is my everything and i will do the simpliest thing for her,just to make her happy.

im thinking of her every second in my day.ppl ask me why i think of her?what so good about her?i have alot of thing to say about this.

when you love her,you can find alot of reason to love her,but you have only one reason why you want to get together with her.

cause you have the special and mysterious feeling hiding in your heart.you cant show it and you cant tell anyone.just you can feel it.some of the feeling you can feel it's going to stay there for a while but some of it you can feel it can stay for a long time,do you think it before when you tell other ppl you love her?

maybe some of you dont agree with my statement,i just want to share with you all how and why i love her so much til i cant do anything with it?

i dont hope i can make everyone happy but just her.what she think and how she think make alot of diff to me.cause she is the only one who can make me feel in this way.

she is the only one who can make me love her so much.

she is the only one who can make me change my mind into another type of thinking

she is the only one who can make me think of her every second everyday

she is the only one who can make me smile the whole day without any single reason.

she is the only one who can make me want to protect her in every way.

when you love the person,dont regret of loving her,just think of treating her good.dont give you yourself all the excuses that she is not good la,or she damn this or that la.all this you shouldnt have when you love a person.
treat her/him better than others.not treat her bad like others.do you think before when you both fight,
1,it will make you both know each other even more,understand each other what each other want.
2,you will stress another person out when another one started the fight.
you must know what to do and how to do with different person.

just like me,i love her and i willing to change my everything for her.last time i can change for my ex,today wen jun can do it again.just for her.
maybe im just immature cant match with her.i dont know seriously why i like that?why i always being so stupid find things to fight leh?
haha.you think i always want to be stupid.?no no no,i wont anymore lo..i need to be a smart fella and not a stupid dumb fella.hehe:)

yesterday is the last day,pls remind me when im being stupid release my emotion like sohai.i dont want and wont do that again.anymore.

why?

cause of her i wont do that anymore.AT ALL!!!

cause i love her so much til i can do everything.hehe:D

tHe dAy i FeEl mYseLf so sTupId aNd UselEsS

i just dont know what should i do and what i do is right,what i do is wrong.
maybe the way i show my care to her is diff from others.thats why she doesnt like it in that way,i dont think i have any reason not to change for her.when you love her damn alot til you cant control yourself,that is what you will do to her,just to make her happy only.

since she is positive person,now ME i will just always be positive.i wont ever get angry get moody or get sad no matter what.cause she doesnt like it.but also need to depends on the situation la.it cant like ppl kacau my girl i can still relax and sitting down there right?i know what to do now and i wont do the things i shouldnt do.

ME,juniee tell everyone who read my blog,i will never ever be emo or moody cause of all the stupid things.cause i want she stay in stress free zone.i miss her damn alot la.i cant imagine i never see hre for one day.imagine you dont eat or drink for the whole day.imagine human live without oxygen or fishes live without water.that is me.
'i cant tell you all how much i love her.i just can do everything for her no matter what,no matter how hard is it,i also will try all my best to do it.i know i made her unhappy,sorry so much and i promise you and everyone will be the weakness that i will never ever be like that anymore.

for the one i love i want me to do that,thats why i promise her in my blog,so that everyone can prove that i said it to her.

my sexy baby:)

i just realised you just shouldnt care so much about everything.


i found that last time im just over sensitive over someone.like want to protect her in every single way,but i never think that she will never has the same mind as me right?


maybe im just over protective and over sensitive over everything,sometimes you just shouldnt care about so much.what she like to do,just say yes and no such thing as NO..





the chance is you need to depend on yourself and not other person give you,what you should do is just put in more effort thats all.dont want think too much and just change!i want to let you know im changing not just for fun,is forever.cause i never think i want to get together with you for a short period of time,what i want is just you,not about the time.of course i hope i can last long with you,maybe someone will say why i so stupid said all this kind of things.





but what i realise is i dont care what other people think about what i said.i just care about what she think.you dont need other people to agree with you,you just need one person who you love to speak out the same word as you.





today she not in a good mood cause just fought before i reached there.i also dont dare to talk to her much cause maybe i will make things worse so i kept quite and let her go and release her stress on the pool table.when i see she play,she just concentrate.i hope she can win the competition tomorrow.i cant do anything for her,just support her from far.


and i also dont want do too many things that will make her feel annoying or emo.i just want her to have a peaceful life and enjoy with everything.

i feel that me and her got one distance in between us,is like we are not that close in the public.i feel damn uncomfortable.and i know alot of people want to go after her,imagine you are the person who meet her the first time,im sure you want to go after her.i cant stop other people from going after her,what i can do is just make her happy and make her remember me,that's all i can do.i cant go and stop them or anything,cause she is not belong to anyone yet.

you know what i want to do next time?i mean my ambition.is that i want to earn the money which can afford my wife to buy what she like.like pool stick,car,go shopping and all.i want to let her know im not that kind of person who know how to talk all the sweet things but dont know make it happen.i swear that i will do it and make her happy in real life no matter in which way.i will love her as much as i can and let her enjoy the life with all the things she likes.for now the person i love alot is just only her.i cant promise anything about future.but if we get together,i think we can last long.why?no reason.sometimes love is just cant explain in words.

all the reason guys tell girls is just to make them feel secure only.

the love between me and her cant explain at all,

one word

"FEEL"

my lovely baby:D

13th Aug 2009

that is who i love the most:)my baby.

i dont think she is pretty but very pretty and sexy:D

dont you think so?

all agree right?:p

today i went for morning classes,damn freaking hell tired,i cant even wake up.cause yesterday i slept damn late.wait to call someone but i cant make it cause the person never go home and stay over her friend's house.how to call leh?yesterday night damn tired d,but i thought i can call her at night but everything since like disappointed me in every way.i purposely stayed awake and washed my face,ate ice cream and worked out in my room.i thought everything is worth it but the fella come again.(disappointment)is like i need to listen to her voice every night only i can sleep,but not every night i can get what i want right?so sometimes i just went fb and see her pictures so i can sleep well at night.

yesterday i went fb and see her pictures before i sleep and suppose to talk to her on the phone.everytimes you talk to the person you love the most you feel damn happy and everything goes right in your mind.you try and think when you never talk to her one day is like never talk to her damn long d.damn suffer right?some more before that i msg her asked where is she,replied me coming back soon,that time i damn excited and wait,at the end i dont know what i get,sad la.why ah?but nvm la.i should just leave it and make her happy.what she want and the way she want i can just follow.cause i should do everything for her when you love her alot til the stage that you cant even imagine and believe that is you are doing that.

tell me what to do?im trying to be positive all the way,cause diff person with diff character,so you love the person must always follow what she want.this is not change for her,cause when you seriously in love with someone you just want her to be happy .now i seriously give up to think to get together with her cause what she want is freedom.just let it be la.i also no more energy keep asking her about all this question.i know she wont like it so must as well i just leave it and let her make the decision.when i look at her,she is happy then everything is worth it.get together?forget it la.always be POSITIVE k?

I WILL ALWAYS BE POSITIVE NO MATTER WHAT LA.

that is the only thing i left with me,also the only thing i can do.