all of a sudden.

i dont know what to say to you anymore..just that something still inside my mind made me still cant forget you..yesterday was me asked sh…to asked you..cause i dont know what to do anymore..i know i hurt you damn alot..but i think now you also nothing d..but for me..i regret so much which cannot change anything in real life between you and me.last two year we broke up..i damn hate you..hate you til like almost forget you..because you were so demanding and unreasonable.but i dont know why i still love you..now i think back you just love me too much til you cant stop all that..now i want it from you.but i know it;s too late for me to say that.now you are in aussie..i cant do anything..i still keep all the thing you gave me..you know..i told all of them i still miss you..every night i also think of you like how i thought of you last time..but now how much i think of you also useless..wenjun in your mind already become a stranger who you want to ignore him and dont want talk to him even one word..why human always regret after they did the damn stupid thing..just like me!!i dare to say that my love to you now keep increasing til the stage that i cant control anymore.i want to decrease it but it's just like moving the aeroplane with my bare hand..i dont want this kind of feeling,i glade to show everyone that you are my gf..i dare to tell them i still miss you..i dare to show them the cards you gave me during my birthday.even though they said you treat me damn bad and all..i dont think love is count like that.it's from the heart.i love you,i need you like how the fish need the water.now you got a bf there..i heard it from someone.so nowi think teowenjun is totally disappear from your mind.i hope i can do something but i totally cant..I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!i just feel the the sky is so dark and everything is not belong to me.everyone told me that i should move on and shouldnt think of her anymore cause they said the fish pond got so many fishes why you dont want to try on other fish and wait for the specific one..they also said that the forest got so many trees..why i want a tree and dont try on others.i tried and i just cant anymore..im exhausted trying all this..maybe i did a wrong decision to let her go..i damn regret to made a most STUPID decision ever..i cant forgive myself..everyone said that it's too late for you to think of all this..but i just cant stop myself from thinking all those impossible thing..all the things she gave me i still keep it.the photos,the cards,and all those things..