OMG!!today i woke up the earliest..cause i need to ask my parents about going genting trip..just one night..but the thing i feel happy not cause of this,'you'made my day.one msg,happy the whole time!i think cause of your msg made me feel so happy nowadays.i dont know why and how,i will smile just out of a sudden.maybe i think of you.nothing and nooone else.JUST YOU!!now is around 1053,i just finished watching NBA finals. LAKERS WON THE TITLE!!!YEAHH!!see when i happy no matter which team i support,will come out a happy ending for me..haha:)thanksssss..

OMG!!!i feel so happy and excited now..this is the first day i feel SO DAMN FREAKING HELL happy.i saw the colour of the sky.why?haha..i think i should keep it to myself...YESSSSHSHHHHHHHHH!!!:):):):)
today everything become good and prefect!hehehehe:D
aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...happy,happy and happyyyyyyy:)

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh:(:(:(

the day i got it!

from the start til now..i did wrong..i shouldnt write anything realted to her on this blog..this made her feel scary..i scare her..ooppsss..sorry..you all know i'm not trying to scare her or anything..right?im just telling her i still need her,thats all..but okay fine..she doesnt like it this way..so i just keep it to myself lo..easy way!i dont know why when i know she scare of me that time..the moment like damn shocked..the whole 3 years i never let her scare of me..and this is the first time.i feel damn stupid doing all this.i thought all this i can make her think i still love her.but im wrong.she think that im stupid to do that..and asked me to move on.do you think i can move on like this?no right?
nvm la..i think i will pass all these day with the status 'SINGLE'.

ahhhhhhhh...:):)i just got back from hartamas..i went out around 930..i told my parents i will be back around 12..haha..i late for 1 hours only go back..cause i went to foos with weisheng.half way playing,i think of her again.why?why i suddenly think of her?i never go there with her before.why?cause when i sawthe atmosphere the first person i want to spend time with,is not the foos table or look around for girls.the first one i think of her.i want to hold her hands and go there..even though i hold her hands and dotn play foos i will be very happy..imagine the one beside you is the one who you love the most..mine is her..but she doesnt stay beside me..i can just imagine she is beside me..the whole day i think of her.today i woke up around 4..actually i woke up at 9 cause this morning channel 812 have the bb match(lakers and magic).but when i opened my eyes and i turned to see the clock.is time!but i told myself cant..i cant wake up now..cause the whole night i never dream of her.so i went back to sleep..finally i dream of her again.im so happy when i woke up:):)i cant see her,cant talk to her,so that is the only way i can see her and talk to her as much as i want..hope later can dream again..

when someone try to stop you from writing something..like how she stop me from writing this blog.she doesnt see a point of it..but i think it means something to me..last time everyone think that it has no point i get together with her..but i see a point of it..so i got together with her..when i think of something that i want to do,noone can stop me..like noone can stop me from loving one person who has bf or whatever..so what??i love her doesnt mean i must get together with her right??i just want to talk to her,chat with her like a normal friends..do you think i so stupid still think that i can get together with her?YA,im stupid every night before i sleep i think of her..when im sleeping i dream of her..dream is not about we both get together or doing something like kiss or hug..just that normal stuff happened in my dream..i just sat down and chat with her and we both were smiling,that's why im so happy when im in my dream:):)everyone were telling me i've no more chance to get with her..not even 0.001% cause it was a past!!and it wont happen in the peresent..haha:(:(
nooone can understand me..everyone just like last time asked me to stop dreaming and think of something gonna happen..do you think i like to dream?you are wrong..i hope everything are real and not in the dream..but..but..do you think anything impossible will happen..last time all the happy time will be history and it wont repeat again..cause when you did something wrong,everything gone!!!!want to start over again...IS TOO LATE!!

i think is just too late.
when she is belongs to you,
you never think of appreciating her,
after she left you,
only you think that is too late.

stupid right.?
i can do everything for you,
just for you to forgive me.
last time i crazy for you,
i dont think anything change,
i still can crazy for the girl i love for 4 years.
still remember i entered sri kdu,the first day i reached there,
not to see how's the school,
i saw her..
out of a sudden,my mind was blank.
i know and i told myself she is the one i'm finding.
i wait for her for 1 years.cause that time ck still there..
he was crazy for her.he did everything for her.
and he did something that noone can imagine.including me.

im the second one who crazy for her,
she made me feel like im the only one for her.
i feel so happy,
do you try this before?
1,feel happy when you have something upset?
2,feel happy when you get scolded?
3,feel relax when your trials just tomorrow?
4,feel nothing when you fight with your parents?
5,feel unhappy when she is not around you?

I TRIED ALL THIS BEFORE.CAUSE OF HER..CHANGE MY LIFE INTO ONE WONDERFUL AND COLOURFUL WORLD.I REALLY APPRECIATE IT.NO MATTER HOW MANY PPLS OBJECT THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN ME AND HER.I STILL TOGETHER WITH HER..MY PARENTS ASKED ME TO LEAVE HER AND HAVE MY OWN LIFE..DO YOU THINK I CAN LIVE IN PEACEFUL WITHOUT HER?
I THINK OF HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO HUG HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO KISS HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO SHARE MY FEELING WITH HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO SEE HER MSG EVERY MOMENT.

but i cant anymore,i lost her.
and
i cant get her back no matter how much thing i do for her now!

you think im stupid to write this thing to her?i dont think so..
still remember before we broke up,she asked me to c8 a blog and write it everyday to tell her how was my life after she left to aussie..but i dont have this chance anymore..


TIFF I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH!!
<3 jun(0308am)