i still love her.....

i think of her again..i dont know why i will just keep thinking of her..maybe she gave me a good and bad memories..til now i still cant find a gf..haha..maybe it's my look problem..hard to find one gf..i think tiffany also feel regret have me as her ex bf..haha..everyone keep telling me how can wenjun get tiffany..tiffany so hot,and wenjun just like a normal guy..haha..i also cant get it why she will choose me as her ex..til now this is still mysterious..i dream about her last week..i think it's tuesday..before i went to college to have my exam..i saw her in my dreamland..i feel damn happy cause i dream about she talk to me after very long..i smile til i woke up..but my smiling face just can last til the moment i woke up..cause when i opened my eyes,i saw that noone is beside me.my mood just like the season swing here and there..
i feel damn sad when i cant see her..i dont know whether that time i broke up with her is a right decision or a wrong decision..that time after i broke up with her..we still talk..but after half of the year..we never talk til today..no matter how long msg i sent to her..she also never reply me one word.i feel damn sad and no mood..she is like my only one who can make me smile the longest and cry for the longest..she left alot of thing to me..happiness sadness suprise excitment and alot of thing..i want to say a thanks to her..but now i cant even talk to her..cant get her reply..even i say a hi,she also wont reply me cause for her the mistake i made is big big big til i cant do anything to replace it..

long long time never blog!

wow..damn long never post d right?i also dont know what to post..my blog like abit dead..haha..cause like sometimes just dont feel like blogging..damn sien..alot of things happened in college..(sunway)!all the topic test finished,and the final exam is near the corner..and i still going out everyday like no exam like that..i also no mood to study la..last time got gf..the gf will asked me to study..you know la..when gf asked i sure study one lo..but now single..abit hard for me to study la..i found that the fish pond is become bigger and bigger..now only i found many kind of fishes inside the pond..i try to choose one to substitute my old fish..but it's hard..when you want to catch the fish..sometimes the fish dont want to get up..no matter how hard you try you also cant..but sometimes when you dont want the fish will jump around and ask you to want..weird right?haha..and one more thing..my college got one hot lecturer..haha..do you know who is that?if you know write the answer in my chat box..:D:Dtogether with your name..dont use other people name pls..fucker..!!:p
picture now i dont have..but i promise i will take more photo for you all to see..

all of a sudden.

i dont know what to say to you anymore..just that something still inside my mind made me still cant forget you..yesterday was me asked sh…to asked you..cause i dont know what to do anymore..i know i hurt you damn alot..but i think now you also nothing d..but for me..i regret so much which cannot change anything in real life between you and me.last two year we broke up..i damn hate you..hate you til like almost forget you..because you were so demanding and unreasonable.but i dont know why i still love you..now i think back you just love me too much til you cant stop all that..now i want it from you.but i know it;s too late for me to say that.now you are in aussie..i cant do anything..i still keep all the thing you gave me..you know..i told all of them i still miss you..every night i also think of you like how i thought of you last time..but now how much i think of you also useless..wenjun in your mind already become a stranger who you want to ignore him and dont want talk to him even one word..why human always regret after they did the damn stupid thing..just like me!!i dare to say that my love to you now keep increasing til the stage that i cant control anymore.i want to decrease it but it's just like moving the aeroplane with my bare hand..i dont want this kind of feeling,i glade to show everyone that you are my gf..i dare to tell them i still miss you..i dare to show them the cards you gave me during my birthday.even though they said you treat me damn bad and all..i dont think love is count like that.it's from the heart.i love you,i need you like how the fish need the water.now you got a bf there..i heard it from someone.so nowi think teowenjun is totally disappear from your mind.i hope i can do something but i totally cant..I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!i just feel the the sky is so dark and everything is not belong to me.everyone told me that i should move on and shouldnt think of her anymore cause they said the fish pond got so many fishes why you dont want to try on other fish and wait for the specific one..they also said that the forest got so many trees..why i want a tree and dont try on others.i tried and i just cant anymore..im exhausted trying all this..maybe i did a wrong decision to let her go..i damn regret to made a most STUPID decision ever..i cant forgive myself..everyone said that it's too late for you to think of all this..but i just cant stop myself from thinking all those impossible thing..all the things she gave me i still keep it.the photos,the cards,and all those things..

aiya accidentally press enter so one line only..
sorry so much.today after coll..everyone very steady.cause once we said yum cha everyone never say no..just said YES..so when we reached rasta there is 5 cars there..yoonwei,meili,karmun,wengfoong and karmun s' car there.we joined 3 table together..then chezhen brian and jeekin followed meili's car..then amy followed karmun's car..me and weisheng followed wengfoong's car..then keechong and yoonwei drove there alone..ghiajun drove jienyoong there..cedric came later around 7 something..someone said today i wont ffk you one..do you know who the hell is that?that is keeefyyy leee..said damn loud today i wont ffk you one..but at the end what is his excuse?errr the ldp damn jam so i stayed at home..good excuse right?what kind of bro is this?we ordered 3 shisha..grape mint,watermelon mint and one shisha that yw ordered one i forgot..the first time i saw meili and jeekin shisha..haha damn funny..then we play chor dee..got 2 set of cards..so each table one..play til half way all feel damn sien..cause 2 set of cards got 8 ppls playing only..other ppl will be stoning there..so at the end we decided to play truth or dare..alot of funny things happened haha..at first chezhen kiss yoonwei nose..then chezhen took off shirt..and wengfoong grab yoonwei ass..wengfoong kiss my neck..karmun kiss meili's eyebrown..somemore i did push up on the spot 15times..all the ppl looking at me..all thought im sohai.meili you ah..somemore ask me do star jump in front of everyone..random dare..haha but it's fun la..then we all left rasta around 730 la..cause all the girls dont want go back too late..scare parents angry..so yeah..i followed meili's car back..thks meili anyways..pictures all not with me..so cant upload..

we all went to rasta together..

damn long never blog d..cause i also dont know what to blog..anyways thks bros..thks for your accompany to ac and police station..thks alot..if without you all i also dont know what to do..but sometimes ah i just cant tahan you all..we all bros dont keep tease each other la mahai..everytimes fought for girls..i dont want mention anyone of you..just know yourself k?the mouth said dont have but what is inside the mind..nooone know..just yourself!remember that k?if you want to choose the girls rather than bros..i just keep my mouth shut and just lost one bro..i never mention anyone of my bros..but i dont hope all this happen on any of my bros..
today kimberly damn fucking garang la..ask her want to watch FAST AND FURIOUS or not..she answered me watch yourself la..wow..then after class ask her again..she asked me go and watch with my mother..im like wth..but the way she said it damn cute..haha..no other meaning just said it for fun..after coll we all went to rasta shisha..yoonwei,weisheng,charles,keefe,wengfoong,musclewong,jienyoong and me..ordered two shisha..one is double apple mint and another one is grape mint..after that around 730 then we all decided to go hartams foos..haha..i think we all addicted to it d..and we saw jessie there..so we all play double with jessie and her friend..we all went back around 830..cause tmw got english test so need to study..now damn late d..tmw need to wake up early follow meili's cargo to college..sien la..why college so stress.?ciao

today i dont know how to describe):

this morning i followed meili's car.brian and edric also following..cause today is mufy game..so we dont have class today..we just went to college and play for the match..we reached there then start to warm up and getting ready to play for the match..actually i play basketball one..then keefe they all playing football..they asked me to play keeper for them..but i want to play basketball...so i just play for both..but i played football for first half only.then i went to play basketball with wengfoong and reggie.we won 3 lost 1.so we waited and continue play..but unfortunately the football team lose to the africa team 2-1..so wasted..our team quite strong one..but just lack of some luck..then my basketball team can just reached quater final.then lost to the nigel.yup they are quite good.causee they have the height.
after that i went to chezhen hostel to bath with ghiajun cause they all went to keefe house and bath..after that we went to ac and play foos..before we go there..something happened again..wenggfoong car no batt..so cant move we help him to push the car to one side..then we went for lunch only decide what to do..when im there zec car was there to help charge wengfoong car d..then he sent his car to workshop to repair..
when we reach ac..our whole gang bros went there..weisheng keefe wengfoong edric yoonwei charles brian zec jienyoong and chezhen..once we reached there,start to foos d..zec teached us how to play..so later we went to play 1on1..the incident happen now..i wore a pants without any pocket so i hold my phone and wallet on my hands..actually i waited for one table to play with either charles or keefe one..so i left my wallet and phone beside the table.i waited damn long..so i went to the table just behind keefe table..i played with weisheng..after i finished my game with him..ALL GONE!!my phone and wallet lost!!!i asked keefe they all..he said just now still here but when he want to leave the table he saw it's not there d..so he thought i took it..but mahai i never take..everything gone..my IC,ARM,driving lesen and all my money..who the fuck go and take my wallet..take the money enough la..mahai took my ic all that for fuck meh..chao hai..i dont understand all this sohai ppl..this cb who took my wallet and phone i want his whole family also kena the same thing..i want they know how come they have this kind of son..mahai..fucking pissed now..damn sad no phone to use now..so after that we went to pyramid and watched the movie called ....forgot the name diuu..something about shopping one..after finished the movie..wengfoong fetch kimberly back to her house then all of them teman me go to AC to find the supervisor and check the CCTv but unlucky the CCTV just faced to the last entrance and the cashier.im like wtf..why he dont put the CCTV can see everywhere..FUCK!!FUCK!!!why today i so fucking bad luck..mahai.i want my phone back..why treat me like that la diuuu..not used to it when the phone not with me..when i get back my new phone i will try to get all my contact back.bad day!!fucking bad mood now..zzz..