i feel that me and her got one distance in between us,is like we are not that close in the public.i feel damn uncomfortable.and i know alot of people want to go after her,imagine you are the person who meet her the first time,im sure you want to go after her.i cant stop other people from going after her,what i can do is just make her happy and make her remember me,that's all i can do.i cant go and stop them or anything,cause she is not belong to anyone yet.

you know what i want to do next time?i mean my ambition.is that i want to earn the money which can afford my wife to buy what she like.like pool stick,car,go shopping and all.i want to let her know im not that kind of person who know how to talk all the sweet things but dont know make it happen.i swear that i will do it and make her happy in real life no matter in which way.i will love her as much as i can and let her enjoy the life with all the things she likes.for now the person i love alot is just only her.i cant promise anything about future.but if we get together,i think we can last long.why?no reason.sometimes love is just cant explain in words.

all the reason guys tell girls is just to make them feel secure only.

the love between me and her cant explain at all,

one word

"FEEL"

my lovely baby:D

13th Aug 2009

that is who i love the most:)my baby.

i dont think she is pretty but very pretty and sexy:D

dont you think so?

all agree right?:p

today i went for morning classes,damn freaking hell tired,i cant even wake up.cause yesterday i slept damn late.wait to call someone but i cant make it cause the person never go home and stay over her friend's house.how to call leh?yesterday night damn tired d,but i thought i can call her at night but everything since like disappointed me in every way.i purposely stayed awake and washed my face,ate ice cream and worked out in my room.i thought everything is worth it but the fella come again.(disappointment)is like i need to listen to her voice every night only i can sleep,but not every night i can get what i want right?so sometimes i just went fb and see her pictures so i can sleep well at night.

yesterday i went fb and see her pictures before i sleep and suppose to talk to her on the phone.everytimes you talk to the person you love the most you feel damn happy and everything goes right in your mind.you try and think when you never talk to her one day is like never talk to her damn long d.damn suffer right?some more before that i msg her asked where is she,replied me coming back soon,that time i damn excited and wait,at the end i dont know what i get,sad la.why ah?but nvm la.i should just leave it and make her happy.what she want and the way she want i can just follow.cause i should do everything for her when you love her alot til the stage that you cant even imagine and believe that is you are doing that.

tell me what to do?im trying to be positive all the way,cause diff person with diff character,so you love the person must always follow what she want.this is not change for her,cause when you seriously in love with someone you just want her to be happy .now i seriously give up to think to get together with her cause what she want is freedom.just let it be la.i also no more energy keep asking her about all this question.i know she wont like it so must as well i just leave it and let her make the decision.when i look at her,she is happy then everything is worth it.get together?forget it la.always be POSITIVE k?

I WILL ALWAYS BE POSITIVE NO MATTER WHAT LA.

that is the only thing i left with me,also the only thing i can do.