stupid yoonwei came back from aussie..he just called me and ask me go and view his fb profile to see the pics..he and tiffany..oh okay..i just viewed his profile.the pics not bad but some of them the light too bright so cant really see clearly..i think i need to let it down and shouldnt keep hoping for her to come back right?i think i should just work harder on my studies..all this i think i should just dont think about it first..i dont think this is the way i should go..turn behind and choose ONE MORE TIME!
太过执着未必是件好事，有时放手会让对方好过！现在不行，不代表十年后也不行！
放开咯.

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this necklace i bought it from genting theme park..i dont know why i buy also..that time actually i went in the shop with wengfoong while waiting for charles,sheng and keechong finish playing the cup thingy..so went in and see..but when i think of the necklace she bought for me.i just want everything that can have words,i will put her name there..but not everything..especially my HEART!

that day came home from genting without any pic so i upload it now..hehe:)we went alot of places to take pictures..like camwhore gang haha:D

OMG!!today i woke up the earliest..cause i need to ask my parents about going genting trip..just one night..but the thing i feel happy not cause of this,'you'made my day.one msg,happy the whole time!i think cause of your msg made me feel so happy nowadays.i dont know why and how,i will smile just out of a sudden.maybe i think of you.nothing and nooone else.JUST YOU!!now is around 1053,i just finished watching NBA finals. LAKERS WON THE TITLE!!!YEAHH!!see when i happy no matter which team i support,will come out a happy ending for me..haha:)thanksssss..

OMG!!!i feel so happy and excited now..this is the first day i feel SO DAMN FREAKING HELL happy.i saw the colour of the sky.why?haha..i think i should keep it to myself...YESSSSHSHHHHHHHHH!!!:):):):)
today everything become good and prefect!hehehehe:D
aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...happy,happy and happyyyyyyy:)

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh:(:(:(

the day i got it!

from the start til now..i did wrong..i shouldnt write anything realted to her on this blog..this made her feel scary..i scare her..ooppsss..sorry..you all know i'm not trying to scare her or anything..right?im just telling her i still need her,thats all..but okay fine..she doesnt like it this way..so i just keep it to myself lo..easy way!i dont know why when i know she scare of me that time..the moment like damn shocked..the whole 3 years i never let her scare of me..and this is the first time.i feel damn stupid doing all this.i thought all this i can make her think i still love her.but im wrong.she think that im stupid to do that..and asked me to move on.do you think i can move on like this?no right?
nvm la..i think i will pass all these day with the status 'SINGLE'.

ahhhhhhhh...:):)i just got back from hartamas..i went out around 930..i told my parents i will be back around 12..haha..i late for 1 hours only go back..cause i went to foos with weisheng.half way playing,i think of her again.why?why i suddenly think of her?i never go there with her before.why?cause when i sawthe atmosphere the first person i want to spend time with,is not the foos table or look around for girls.the first one i think of her.i want to hold her hands and go there..even though i hold her hands and dotn play foos i will be very happy..imagine the one beside you is the one who you love the most..mine is her..but she doesnt stay beside me..i can just imagine she is beside me..the whole day i think of her.today i woke up around 4..actually i woke up at 9 cause this morning channel 812 have the bb match(lakers and magic).but when i opened my eyes and i turned to see the clock.is time!but i told myself cant..i cant wake up now..cause the whole night i never dream of her.so i went back to sleep..finally i dream of her again.im so happy when i woke up:):)i cant see her,cant talk to her,so that is the only way i can see her and talk to her as much as i want..hope later can dream again..

when someone try to stop you from writing something..like how she stop me from writing this blog.she doesnt see a point of it..but i think it means something to me..last time everyone think that it has no point i get together with her..but i see a point of it..so i got together with her..when i think of something that i want to do,noone can stop me..like noone can stop me from loving one person who has bf or whatever..so what??i love her doesnt mean i must get together with her right??i just want to talk to her,chat with her like a normal friends..do you think i so stupid still think that i can get together with her?YA,im stupid every night before i sleep i think of her..when im sleeping i dream of her..dream is not about we both get together or doing something like kiss or hug..just that normal stuff happened in my dream..i just sat down and chat with her and we both were smiling,that's why im so happy when im in my dream:):)everyone were telling me i've no more chance to get with her..not even 0.001% cause it was a past!!and it wont happen in the peresent..haha:(:(
nooone can understand me..everyone just like last time asked me to stop dreaming and think of something gonna happen..do you think i like to dream?you are wrong..i hope everything are real and not in the dream..but..but..do you think anything impossible will happen..last time all the happy time will be history and it wont repeat again..cause when you did something wrong,everything gone!!!!want to start over again...IS TOO LATE!!

i think is just too late.
when she is belongs to you,
you never think of appreciating her,
after she left you,
only you think that is too late.

stupid right.?
i can do everything for you,
just for you to forgive me.
last time i crazy for you,
i dont think anything change,
i still can crazy for the girl i love for 4 years.
still remember i entered sri kdu,the first day i reached there,
not to see how's the school,
i saw her..
out of a sudden,my mind was blank.
i know and i told myself she is the one i'm finding.
i wait for her for 1 years.cause that time ck still there..
he was crazy for her.he did everything for her.
and he did something that noone can imagine.including me.

im the second one who crazy for her,
she made me feel like im the only one for her.
i feel so happy,
do you try this before?
1,feel happy when you have something upset?
2,feel happy when you get scolded?
3,feel relax when your trials just tomorrow?
4,feel nothing when you fight with your parents?
5,feel unhappy when she is not around you?

I TRIED ALL THIS BEFORE.CAUSE OF HER..CHANGE MY LIFE INTO ONE WONDERFUL AND COLOURFUL WORLD.I REALLY APPRECIATE IT.NO MATTER HOW MANY PPLS OBJECT THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN ME AND HER.I STILL TOGETHER WITH HER..MY PARENTS ASKED ME TO LEAVE HER AND HAVE MY OWN LIFE..DO YOU THINK I CAN LIVE IN PEACEFUL WITHOUT HER?
I THINK OF HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO HUG HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO KISS HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO SHARE MY FEELING WITH HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO SEE HER MSG EVERY MOMENT.

but i cant anymore,i lost her.
and
i cant get her back no matter how much thing i do for her now!

you think im stupid to write this thing to her?i dont think so..
still remember before we broke up,she asked me to c8 a blog and write it everyday to tell her how was my life after she left to aussie..but i dont have this chance anymore..


TIFF I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH!!
<3 jun(0308am)

holidays should be happy?but...i'm not!

it's really hard for me you know..how long i spent my time together with her?i also dont know cause im enjoying my life with her..one time i seriously lying down my bed and think of the me and her..still remember last time i tell myself this girl i can together with her damn long..cause we love each other alot..like we cant live without each other..but now the ending is we broke up.i dont know is this ending i want..i cant hope for any other ending cause it's really far for me to say this anymore..im trying so hard just hope for her one word reply..but i cant..she hate me til doesnt want to reply me even just one word msg..last two weeks i think of her almost every weeek.cause i know in my heart still have the space for me..but the place will be empty forever..she wont forgive me til the moment i close my eye and meet my grandfather..maybe this is the worst decision i made ever..i shouldnt let her go..i should say i was wrong til i cant forgive myself.why?why i did the stupid decision and now im making myself regret..i dont hope the second wrong decision i make in my life..i cant take it anymore..
anyways i also dotn think any girls like me this kind of guy..so i dont think any decision i need to make..i think i will be single in my whole life..haha..
tiff..sorry,i dont hope for your forgive and i just hope you forget me this kind of stupid guy..i bet you've already done!right?haha..thanks.
the pic will be the last pic i post up..sorry tiff if you mind.