my sexy baby:)

i just realised you just shouldnt care so much about everything.


i found that last time im just over sensitive over someone.like want to protect her in every single way,but i never think that she will never has the same mind as me right?


maybe im just over protective and over sensitive over everything,sometimes you just shouldnt care about so much.what she like to do,just say yes and no such thing as NO..





the chance is you need to depend on yourself and not other person give you,what you should do is just put in more effort thats all.dont want think too much and just change!i want to let you know im changing not just for fun,is forever.cause i never think i want to get together with you for a short period of time,what i want is just you,not about the time.of course i hope i can last long with you,maybe someone will say why i so stupid said all this kind of things.





but what i realise is i dont care what other people think about what i said.i just care about what she think.you dont need other people to agree with you,you just need one person who you love to speak out the same word as you.





today she not in a good mood cause just fought before i reached there.i also dont dare to talk to her much cause maybe i will make things worse so i kept quite and let her go and release her stress on the pool table.when i see she play,she just concentrate.i hope she can win the competition tomorrow.i cant do anything for her,just support her from far.


and i also dont want do too many things that will make her feel annoying or emo.i just want her to have a peaceful life and enjoy with everything.

i feel that me and her got one distance in between us,is like we are not that close in the public.i feel damn uncomfortable.and i know alot of people want to go after her,imagine you are the person who meet her the first time,im sure you want to go after her.i cant stop other people from going after her,what i can do is just make her happy and make her remember me,that's all i can do.i cant go and stop them or anything,cause she is not belong to anyone yet.

you know what i want to do next time?i mean my ambition.is that i want to earn the money which can afford my wife to buy what she like.like pool stick,car,go shopping and all.i want to let her know im not that kind of person who know how to talk all the sweet things but dont know make it happen.i swear that i will do it and make her happy in real life no matter in which way.i will love her as much as i can and let her enjoy the life with all the things she likes.for now the person i love alot is just only her.i cant promise anything about future.but if we get together,i think we can last long.why?no reason.sometimes love is just cant explain in words.

all the reason guys tell girls is just to make them feel secure only.

the love between me and her cant explain at all,

one word

"FEEL"

my lovely baby:D

13th Aug 2009

that is who i love the most:)my baby.

i dont think she is pretty but very pretty and sexy:D

dont you think so?

all agree right?:p

today i went for morning classes,damn freaking hell tired,i cant even wake up.cause yesterday i slept damn late.wait to call someone but i cant make it cause the person never go home and stay over her friend's house.how to call leh?yesterday night damn tired d,but i thought i can call her at night but everything since like disappointed me in every way.i purposely stayed awake and washed my face,ate ice cream and worked out in my room.i thought everything is worth it but the fella come again.(disappointment)is like i need to listen to her voice every night only i can sleep,but not every night i can get what i want right?so sometimes i just went fb and see her pictures so i can sleep well at night.

yesterday i went fb and see her pictures before i sleep and suppose to talk to her on the phone.everytimes you talk to the person you love the most you feel damn happy and everything goes right in your mind.you try and think when you never talk to her one day is like never talk to her damn long d.damn suffer right?some more before that i msg her asked where is she,replied me coming back soon,that time i damn excited and wait,at the end i dont know what i get,sad la.why ah?but nvm la.i should just leave it and make her happy.what she want and the way she want i can just follow.cause i should do everything for her when you love her alot til the stage that you cant even imagine and believe that is you are doing that.

tell me what to do?im trying to be positive all the way,cause diff person with diff character,so you love the person must always follow what she want.this is not change for her,cause when you seriously in love with someone you just want her to be happy .now i seriously give up to think to get together with her cause what she want is freedom.just let it be la.i also no more energy keep asking her about all this question.i know she wont like it so must as well i just leave it and let her make the decision.when i look at her,she is happy then everything is worth it.get together?forget it la.always be POSITIVE k?

I WILL ALWAYS BE POSITIVE NO MATTER WHAT LA.

that is the only thing i left with me,also the only thing i can do.

my OK day!

today consider a normal but tiring day.early in the morning must go to coll for the first econs class.damn boring.the class just started around 15 mins,then zheng,brian,jason and sheng all lying on the table d.but the $ never say anything.
after coll we all play futsal in sport planet from 5-7.damn tired.
after that we planned to go eat steamboat in kelana jaya-telephone steamboat.but it never open so we change our venue to kota damansara-hoho steamboat,obviously before that i must do something before i have my dinner,if not i cant eat at all.
can guess what is that?
seeing her for a short moment.dont know why,when i look at her,i feel my tiring day became a energetic and enjoy day.dont you think we all should live in this way,like the one who you love doesnt want to get together with you,so what?the best thing is can see her everyday and talk to her.even though she got a new bf,you should just love her from far far away.dont do anything to her.you love someone not to hope for anything in return from her,just hope she's happy enough.she treat you as a normal friend or stranger also can.but i just hope to see her enjoy her life without having any stress,right?the moment you think of her,the world is so wonderful and colourful.

even though we never like last time,but we are still friends.i dont care what she said hurt my heart or my feeling,i just want her to be happy.selfish right?i willing to do that for her.maybe at the end i wont get her as mine,but i hope she can get another better.i just dont want her to be unhappy and stress for anything.

happy and free life,
dont you want it?
dont be selfish,
think of her,
follow her way,
let it be.

WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF LIVING IN THIS WORLD?
see the one who you love smile.
see the one who you love laugh.
see the one who you love sleep.
see the one who you love BE HAPPY!
that is the most important thing.

i dont like to see her cry,tell me she is stress,then i hope i never appear in her life or in front of her.i hope i dont live in this world if im giving her stress in this way,if i know she is stress about this,i will feel damn painful and sad.that day i think properly about everything and i cried.cause i damn freaking hell selfish,i never think she will doesnt like it in this way.how stupid am i?TELL ME!why the god want to play me in this way?give me and take it away from me.at that moment my mind was blank and i dont know how i feel?sad?NO,worse than that.want to cry?i hope i can bring all my tears out from my body and let it go.

LET'S IMAGINE!
you lost the one who you love the most.she think you are giving her alot of stress.when she is unhappy,do you think you can be happy?i dont thinkkkk sooo..impossible!if you are happy,that means what you told her like how much you love her or how long you both will last?
ALLLLLL BULLSHIT!!!
WHAT KIND OF FUCKING SHIT IS THAT?

LOVING her is like the GOD passed to me when i was borned.
seeing her smile is the happiest thing ever in my life.
seeing her happy,that's the reason why i feel glad.

wHat iS lOve?

sometimes something just not always follow what you want in your mind,when the things come to some place,it should just stop and think properly whether you should do that or you should just stop everything and think.im not saying what you want or what you dont want.is about the another side of you,think it in another way,at first i dont know it should be like that,but now after i got it from someone i knew it,when someone dont want it to happen,we should just leave it,cant force it to happen or whatever shit which follow you.

you must respect another side-take it slowly or just stop it.i know it's damn hurt but when it comes to some point which cant do what you want,that's what you should do at the end.

so what you love her so so kao alot,at the end when she said "I WANT TO BE SINGLE"
you know what is the sound for the glass to drop on the floor?on that time that's the sound from my heart.you cant expect anything to happen again again and again.cause you had made the wrong move and made her to have this kind of move which will hurt your heart.but what else you can do with it?

speechless and hopeless.

the world just turned dark,
clouds covering,
when's the right time?
to see the real world,
with the colourful sky.

hope hope and hope?
does it work?i hope so,but i cant believe one day i just totally lose her in a way that i cant really do anything with it.
before i met her,
i walked alone,eat alone,sleep alone.
but when i saw her,my world changed.
TOTALLY!!360degree change.
i know what is the purpose of living in this world,
i got it why i wish to wake up earlier everyday just to think of her for the short moment.
only i willing to wake up from the bed to get ready for everything.

do you try this before?
when you wake up for classes,you take one min to think what is the purpose of waking up so early?what is the main point to make everything go in the right way.when you lack of the most important thing from one most important person.it's just really hard to imagine what kind of world it will turn into.
-dark and scary.
-hopeless and useless.
-sleepy and tired.
-no motivation and energy.

i know how to ask.but do you think i need all this at this moment?no matter how special or how long i took to think this,it become rubbish at the end.cant use it at all.
but you need to know that,you MUST respect the one who you love,
follow her mind and listen to what she said.cause you cant change anything anymore.

do you think the plaster can help?

can you place the broken heart into the same position without any blood?

giRl wHo wOrTh fOr You tO lOvE:)

imagine who you love the most told you that we have some problem need totake a step backwards.how you feel?i can tell you it's terrible and feel like shit..everyone also face problemevery single day,we cant just leave the problem like that,every single person also have their different kind of thinking.thats why we all are special individuals right?if you love the person you must think of a good way to make the situation good for both of you.you cant just try,you must do it and make it happen.now only i realise you cant overlook the situation,cause sometimes you will make things worse.you must always be positive,even though you are not totally that kind of person,but when you love another person with the positive thinking,you must tell yourself whether you want to get together with her or you just want to be back yourself..for diff ppl have diff decision.just like thinking-positive or negative?decision-be back yourself or change it? sometimes all this decision is hard for you to make it so fast.but when you think of the girl you love so much,and you are facing this problem.your mind will be blank and just ask yourself that how much you love her?do you think she is worth it?then you will know what are you going to do.
for me i will just tell myself i dont want to make any decision will make me regret.i want to make the right decision which will leads me to happiness but not sadness or stress.i found mine,DO YOU?



when come to all this relationship,i never joke around with the girls i love.i know last time still young made a lot of wrong decision cause me to regret,so now i never let all this happen in my life again.i will change for her,even though im not.
sometimes you must think it through another perspective.you cant just think with your own stand,maybe some of you dont get what i mean,but when you come to your lover,you will get it and understand it.

love is just like that,you cant get who you want but you get the one who is diff from you,relationship need alot of opposite thing,like thinking-negative person must couple with positive person.you cant have both the same,if not once they have problem,the problem will just leave there and hard to settle.choose the right one for yourself and others.DONT REGRET!



THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN RELATIONSHIP

TRUST AND BELIEVE!

my birthday on 22nd of july,2009

we were in ou cause we planned to play futsal right after college.we all went back home and get our own stuff,my baby following me after college to my house.sheng also with me.she was driving her car.after that we went to ou and play futsal from 5 to 7 but i reached there late around 6 something,i kena fuck,haha:)after we play then we walked around ou and deciding where to have our dinner,at first we planned to go FRIDAYS but need to wait 15-20mins,i lazy to wait then someone suggested to have steamboat in old wings.on the way there,then charliee suddenly said want to go souled out,cause there got atmosphere.so we turned back and go souled out.that was the pic on the way to hartamas before passing the tunnel.we took alot of pic.

and the most important person i need to say thanks is my baby,rac<3.cause>

THANKS GUYS!!

before we go to souled out,waiting for mr moo and meili's car to come.




the group photo..a bit dark!

me and charlieee...

me and the bear bear chong.:D

the little birdyyy.

the blur chicken.

hartamas dai ko!

best bro,chokingwind.

muscle moo and jy

real muscle wong..

mr moo and meili(my darling)

my darling.

my two best bro,sheng(ratty)and foong(vomit king)

my baby and sien(stoner)

my baby and I.

sien and rac<3

gay partner:)

random.lol

making a wish:D

vomit king!

charlieee..

bear bear.

birdy.

best bro yoong.

sien me and my baby,rac<3>

juniee<3