MEILI'S PARTY:)
yesterday when i reached home a bit late..so cant update my blog..til now only i free to update..yesterday was meili's party.before that i went out with weisheng around 3 something to his house only took a cab to ac..cause my sis drove the car out..so i got no choice to take cab with him..when i reached there..i saw her there also..then i play pool with her and weisheng.after that we need to go back around 8 something..we were late for meili's party.i asked rachel to go meili's party also..she said tell me later whether she can make it or not..we took cab from ac to jy house.then only he fetch me to my house and change,by the time i want to go out.my dad came back.so happy,can drive out no need mafan my bros..i drove there with weisheng.reached there around 9 something,we sat down chill for a while,then start to play poker on the dinning table..some of them play IN BETWEEN behind us..rachel reached meili's house around 11..

ME AND HER:D
besides that,i also damn happy on that day.cause i have something on with her..we get closer and closer..i feel the day was so bright even though it was raining on that moment.i hugging her and i dont feel like let go my hands.the feeling was perfect.i hope everyday i also can spend time with her together..but the time i spent with her yesterday not that long also.if i can spend the whole night with her,that is even better.dont you think so?i feel i so lucky to know her after i broke up with my ex so long..last time i think of her everyday-my ex..but she told me that we have no chance to get together,and i dont think i should waste time on her cause she have a bf..when i know she is happy with the bf,that's enough for me..i still treat her as my good friends.but she is diff from her,i need to change for her cause her attitude is diff from my ex.so yeah..i dont want to make myself regret again.i dont want never love the girl i suppose to love,i wont let her go no matter what..

MY STUPID PIMPLE
fucker,the stupid pimple like to follow me.diuuuuuuuu..

missing her is just like my daily routine:)

today my coll damn tiring..maybe it's because i slept late yesterday night.this morning when i was driving to coll i damn sleepy la..almost fall asleep..lucky i think of her and it made me awake..hehe:)magic right?haha..but i seriously love her so much la..when she was beside me,i feel that wanna spend longer time with her,when i got back home,i feel like wanna go find her and spend time with her again..just like keep want to spend time with her..it's really amazing spending with her..she made my day:)when she is not beside me i will miss her kao kao alot.when she is beside me,i want to stare at her the whole time just look at her pretty and attractive face..the feeling damn weird..the first time i feel this way.i dont know how to explain how much i love her and how much i miss her.

i cannot find a place where you do not exist,
my hearts still leaves the door open a little,
for YOU to step in.

unrEasOnablE excUsE

this two years this is my first time i feel that im so useless cause i cant let her feel that my love to her is real and it's not fake..if you treat me as your lifebouy i dont mind you said that to me..but for the reason you give me i dont think i can accept it..if you treat me just a normal friends and just use me to pass your free time..this reason i can accept..but you tell me for any other reason no la..i dont think so..you think i treat you as what?bubblegum??tissue??no..you are just like my heart.do you think you can ask me to live without my heart?and go after others without my heart???it's all bullshit..i cant imagine you said that to me..i want you to know..the feeling is not just like or love so simple..in a short time like this..you gave me a special and wonderful time..for damn long i never have all this kind of feeling.you want me to search for others who will give me this kind of feeling?

i feel that im so stupid and fucked up cause i cant do anything..it makes me cant do anything now,just think of you.im trying my best to call her now but i think her phone is off now.i dont know what to do now,feel so blank in my mind.

COLLEGE!?!

today i woke up early and i went to college to register all the subject..damn alot of ppl..i feel nice to go back coll but everydays i need to wake up before 7 cause my class will start at 830..damn cham right?but something motivate me to wake up early everyday..hehe:)

wait!
do you feel like this before?you feel that you cant live without her,missing her all the time,want her to stay beside you and all the special feeling..i got it!finally i got it.she gave me the special feeling like i must see everyday,if not i will feel like uncomfortable..i think she is the first one who make me feel so sooooo.....sooo...after two and a half year.i miss this kinda feeling!when she is beside me,even though how sleep am i or how moody am i,i will be fine once she is beside me..maybe i have alot of things to correct so that i can match her..but anyways i will always try my best cause of her..actually today i cant go back late,but i choose to fetch her here and there just to spend time with her..i dont care how far is it..i just hope the car will just stop there and dont move.so i can spend the whole day with her.she is the first one who gave me this kinda feeling.SHE IS THE FIRST ONE!!everyone give me diff feeling.but hers is the most special one.
:):):):):):)happpppppyyyyyyyy!:D

2nd of june,2009,outing!

yesterday weisheng woke me up around 10 something.asked me about the plan for yesterday..then i told him the whole plans and asked him to ask meili whether i pick her up or she drive me there..then later i got her msg,errr ask me to pick her up..so around 2 something i went to pick meili and weisheng up.
actually i asked one of my friend out also..this was my friends i know her not that long..just a few days only.but i asked her out for a movie.actually i thought she will drive there herself,but not good right?

so i went and fetch her in taylors:)
cause i dont want her to drive there so mafan.
cause after that we all going the same destination.means AC.

we watch ICE AGE 3.the show quite funny and it was quite interesting also.after the movie,we went to AC together.play pool and foos.around 7 something we went down to have dinner.

this weisheng a bit too much,order the drink and made me sit down and pay for him.then he himself go walk around with meili and order food..too fucking much:)but nvm la..my bro ma.just pay for him lo.

oooooppsssss..i never tell you all what is my friend's name yet right..haha:)her name is rachel:)nice name right?at night we planned to go either hartamas or alsafa.

but at the end our final decision was hartamas.cause we dont want to spend the whole night in alsafa just shisha.so we went breakers and foos.later only go davies and shisha.i asked rachel to go hartamas also..to teman me la.she is a nice and pretty girl.she gave me a comfyy feeling.
and meili also told me about her,said that she is friendly not like other girls even though that was the first time they met,i think they can become good friends if we plan more outing:)

on the way sending meili home,i went to desa park city and buy credit.walking in the 7-eleven,i saw two ang-mo were buying alot of stuff.then they talk to the cashier alot of things.something their house were having some party and they have one prostitute in their house,that time i stone there.im like wtf.then after they ciao,the cashier asked me what they both said?then i told them PEREMPUAN la..then the sohai cashier damn happy and say it in malay,i want to join also..ask them wait for me..haha:)this kind of people damn funnyyy..

stupid yoonwei came back from aussie..he just called me and ask me go and view his fb profile to see the pics..he and tiffany..oh okay..i just viewed his profile.the pics not bad but some of them the light too bright so cant really see clearly..i think i need to let it down and shouldnt keep hoping for her to come back right?i think i should just work harder on my studies..all this i think i should just dont think about it first..i dont think this is the way i should go..turn behind and choose ONE MORE TIME!
太过执着未必是件好事，有时放手会让对方好过！现在不行，不代表十年后也不行！
放开咯.

doNt aPpreciAte wHen She bElonGs to yOu,rEgrEt=0

this necklace i bought it from genting theme park..i dont know why i buy also..that time actually i went in the shop with wengfoong while waiting for charles,sheng and keechong finish playing the cup thingy..so went in and see..but when i think of the necklace she bought for me.i just want everything that can have words,i will put her name there..but not everything..especially my HEART!