ahhhhhhhh...:):)i just got back from hartamas..i went out around 930..i told my parents i will be back around 12..haha..i late for 1 hours only go back..cause i went to foos with weisheng.half way playing,i think of her again.why?why i suddenly think of her?i never go there with her before.why?cause when i sawthe atmosphere the first person i want to spend time with,is not the foos table or look around for girls.the first one i think of her.i want to hold her hands and go there..even though i hold her hands and dotn play foos i will be very happy..imagine the one beside you is the one who you love the most..mine is her..but she doesnt stay beside me..i can just imagine she is beside me..the whole day i think of her.today i woke up around 4..actually i woke up at 9 cause this morning channel 812 have the bb match(lakers and magic).but when i opened my eyes and i turned to see the clock.is time!but i told myself cant..i cant wake up now..cause the whole night i never dream of her.so i went back to sleep..finally i dream of her again.im so happy when i woke up:):)i cant see her,cant talk to her,so that is the only way i can see her and talk to her as much as i want..hope later can dream again..

when someone try to stop you from writing something..like how she stop me from writing this blog.she doesnt see a point of it..but i think it means something to me..last time everyone think that it has no point i get together with her..but i see a point of it..so i got together with her..when i think of something that i want to do,noone can stop me..like noone can stop me from loving one person who has bf or whatever..so what??i love her doesnt mean i must get together with her right??i just want to talk to her,chat with her like a normal friends..do you think i so stupid still think that i can get together with her?YA,im stupid every night before i sleep i think of her..when im sleeping i dream of her..dream is not about we both get together or doing something like kiss or hug..just that normal stuff happened in my dream..i just sat down and chat with her and we both were smiling,that's why im so happy when im in my dream:):)everyone were telling me i've no more chance to get with her..not even 0.001% cause it was a past!!and it wont happen in the peresent..haha:(:(
nooone can understand me..everyone just like last time asked me to stop dreaming and think of something gonna happen..do you think i like to dream?you are wrong..i hope everything are real and not in the dream..but..but..do you think anything impossible will happen..last time all the happy time will be history and it wont repeat again..cause when you did something wrong,everything gone!!!!want to start over again...IS TOO LATE!!

i think is just too late.
when she is belongs to you,
you never think of appreciating her,
after she left you,
only you think that is too late.

stupid right.?
i can do everything for you,
just for you to forgive me.
last time i crazy for you,
i dont think anything change,
i still can crazy for the girl i love for 4 years.
still remember i entered sri kdu,the first day i reached there,
not to see how's the school,
i saw her..
out of a sudden,my mind was blank.
i know and i told myself she is the one i'm finding.
i wait for her for 1 years.cause that time ck still there..
he was crazy for her.he did everything for her.
and he did something that noone can imagine.including me.

im the second one who crazy for her,
she made me feel like im the only one for her.
i feel so happy,
do you try this before?
1,feel happy when you have something upset?
2,feel happy when you get scolded?
3,feel relax when your trials just tomorrow?
4,feel nothing when you fight with your parents?
5,feel unhappy when she is not around you?

I TRIED ALL THIS BEFORE.CAUSE OF HER..CHANGE MY LIFE INTO ONE WONDERFUL AND COLOURFUL WORLD.I REALLY APPRECIATE IT.NO MATTER HOW MANY PPLS OBJECT THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN ME AND HER.I STILL TOGETHER WITH HER..MY PARENTS ASKED ME TO LEAVE HER AND HAVE MY OWN LIFE..DO YOU THINK I CAN LIVE IN PEACEFUL WITHOUT HER?
I THINK OF HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO HUG HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO KISS HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO SHARE MY FEELING WITH HER EVERY MOMENT.
I THINK TO SEE HER MSG EVERY MOMENT.

but i cant anymore,i lost her.
and
i cant get her back no matter how much thing i do for her now!

you think im stupid to write this thing to her?i dont think so..
still remember before we broke up,she asked me to c8 a blog and write it everyday to tell her how was my life after she left to aussie..but i dont have this chance anymore..


TIFF I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH!!
<3 jun(0308am)

holidays should be happy?but...i'm not!

it's really hard for me you know..how long i spent my time together with her?i also dont know cause im enjoying my life with her..one time i seriously lying down my bed and think of the me and her..still remember last time i tell myself this girl i can together with her damn long..cause we love each other alot..like we cant live without each other..but now the ending is we broke up.i dont know is this ending i want..i cant hope for any other ending cause it's really far for me to say this anymore..im trying so hard just hope for her one word reply..but i cant..she hate me til doesnt want to reply me even just one word msg..last two weeks i think of her almost every weeek.cause i know in my heart still have the space for me..but the place will be empty forever..she wont forgive me til the moment i close my eye and meet my grandfather..maybe this is the worst decision i made ever..i shouldnt let her go..i should say i was wrong til i cant forgive myself.why?why i did the stupid decision and now im making myself regret..i dont hope the second wrong decision i make in my life..i cant take it anymore..
anyways i also dotn think any girls like me this kind of guy..so i dont think any decision i need to make..i think i will be single in my whole life..haha..
tiff..sorry,i dont hope for your forgive and i just hope you forget me this kind of stupid guy..i bet you've already done!right?haha..thanks.
the pic will be the last pic i post up..sorry tiff if you mind.

i still love her.....

i think of her again..i dont know why i will just keep thinking of her..maybe she gave me a good and bad memories..til now i still cant find a gf..haha..maybe it's my look problem..hard to find one gf..i think tiffany also feel regret have me as her ex bf..haha..everyone keep telling me how can wenjun get tiffany..tiffany so hot,and wenjun just like a normal guy..haha..i also cant get it why she will choose me as her ex..til now this is still mysterious..i dream about her last week..i think it's tuesday..before i went to college to have my exam..i saw her in my dreamland..i feel damn happy cause i dream about she talk to me after very long..i smile til i woke up..but my smiling face just can last til the moment i woke up..cause when i opened my eyes,i saw that noone is beside me.my mood just like the season swing here and there..
i feel damn sad when i cant see her..i dont know whether that time i broke up with her is a right decision or a wrong decision..that time after i broke up with her..we still talk..but after half of the year..we never talk til today..no matter how long msg i sent to her..she also never reply me one word.i feel damn sad and no mood..she is like my only one who can make me smile the longest and cry for the longest..she left alot of thing to me..happiness sadness suprise excitment and alot of thing..i want to say a thanks to her..but now i cant even talk to her..cant get her reply..even i say a hi,she also wont reply me cause for her the mistake i made is big big big til i cant do anything to replace it..

long long time never blog!

wow..damn long never post d right?i also dont know what to post..my blog like abit dead..haha..cause like sometimes just dont feel like blogging..damn sien..alot of things happened in college..(sunway)!all the topic test finished,and the final exam is near the corner..and i still going out everyday like no exam like that..i also no mood to study la..last time got gf..the gf will asked me to study..you know la..when gf asked i sure study one lo..but now single..abit hard for me to study la..i found that the fish pond is become bigger and bigger..now only i found many kind of fishes inside the pond..i try to choose one to substitute my old fish..but it's hard..when you want to catch the fish..sometimes the fish dont want to get up..no matter how hard you try you also cant..but sometimes when you dont want the fish will jump around and ask you to want..weird right?haha..and one more thing..my college got one hot lecturer..haha..do you know who is that?if you know write the answer in my chat box..:D:Dtogether with your name..dont use other people name pls..fucker..!!:p
picture now i dont have..but i promise i will take more photo for you all to see..

all of a sudden.

i dont know what to say to you anymore..just that something still inside my mind made me still cant forget you..yesterday was me asked sh…to asked you..cause i dont know what to do anymore..i know i hurt you damn alot..but i think now you also nothing d..but for me..i regret so much which cannot change anything in real life between you and me.last two year we broke up..i damn hate you..hate you til like almost forget you..because you were so demanding and unreasonable.but i dont know why i still love you..now i think back you just love me too much til you cant stop all that..now i want it from you.but i know it;s too late for me to say that.now you are in aussie..i cant do anything..i still keep all the thing you gave me..you know..i told all of them i still miss you..every night i also think of you like how i thought of you last time..but now how much i think of you also useless..wenjun in your mind already become a stranger who you want to ignore him and dont want talk to him even one word..why human always regret after they did the damn stupid thing..just like me!!i dare to say that my love to you now keep increasing til the stage that i cant control anymore.i want to decrease it but it's just like moving the aeroplane with my bare hand..i dont want this kind of feeling,i glade to show everyone that you are my gf..i dare to tell them i still miss you..i dare to show them the cards you gave me during my birthday.even though they said you treat me damn bad and all..i dont think love is count like that.it's from the heart.i love you,i need you like how the fish need the water.now you got a bf there..i heard it from someone.so nowi think teowenjun is totally disappear from your mind.i hope i can do something but i totally cant..I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!i just feel the the sky is so dark and everything is not belong to me.everyone told me that i should move on and shouldnt think of her anymore cause they said the fish pond got so many fishes why you dont want to try on other fish and wait for the specific one..they also said that the forest got so many trees..why i want a tree and dont try on others.i tried and i just cant anymore..im exhausted trying all this..maybe i did a wrong decision to let her go..i damn regret to made a most STUPID decision ever..i cant forgive myself..everyone said that it's too late for you to think of all this..but i just cant stop myself from thinking all those impossible thing..all the things she gave me i still keep it.the photos,the cards,and all those things..